So I am pretty sure that I have yet to lucid dream. And by lucid dream I mean doing what I want in my dream that goes beyond the limits of reality. My first experience with what I though was LD was a very realistic dream where I had control over my thoughts however I did not realize I was dreaming. This ended up with me waking up and having my first bout with sleep paralysis which lasted only about 15 seconds but was terrifying because I had no idea what was going on. Over the next couple of months realistic dreams ensued but last night was just a crazy marathon of… well I don’t know what it was which is why I am here.
So its like 12 o clock and I need some sleep because I want to wake early to study for my test. My tv is on because I usually use it to fall asleep. However, this time I realized that I wasn’t really tired so I just laid there in my bed with my eyes closed. After some time of laying there I felt my consciousness altered into a dream like state, it was an instant transition between reality on somthing else. This was different tho, my eyes were closed but I could see everything around my room… I must be dreaming I thought. I tried to get up out of my bed and explore but I couldn’t because I was paralyzed. I started to doubt that I was dreaming but to make sure I looked at my hands. WOW! Wtf is this? One of my arms is wearing a sleeve and my hand is missing, my other one is perfectly fine tho. I was certain now I was dreaming but I was stuck in bed so I tried to use my thoughts to make things happen. Being the pervert that I am I tried manifesting a celebrity to have some fun with. So I began thinking of Jessica Alba in my head but she never came , all I felt was some minor pleasure in my private area. Well that wasn’t working so I tried something else I wanted to do… flying. I thought of lifting off from my bed to go explore the world and I felt a weird sensation… it felt as if I was floating on my bed however I could not fully take off because it felt as if I was chained to my bed.
Blurriness ensues and I look at my hands… they look fine and I realize I have drifted back into reality. Displeased I lay down again thinking I would get some actual sleep this time. But no… moments later the same expierence happens again and my consciousness is altered. This time when I look at my hands they look completely messed. However I still failed to lucid dream, and this whole things repeated itself about 5 times that night.