hey guys
i only been to sleep about an hour or two, but trust me i fought to leave my bed lol
you can blame this on SP if you wish, i hope i could but i just cant anymore.
i tried to reason with my self while this stuff happens, and i swear it just makes it worse.
i went to sleep about 5.00 am and woke up at 7.30 am, before sleep though i attempted a wild meditation.
a lot of times in the so called sp state i would hear voices and whispers, but never have i ever experienced real intelligence
for the last hour or so i was trapped in what you would call the sp state, it wasn’t scary at all, except one or two things, i was communicating with this female for the whole hour i was in it, and she was quite nice a lot better then some of the things i have experienced.
she gave me a hand job, no no lie im being 100% truthful and hope you guys believe me!!!, its only when i wanted to be left alone things got a bit scary…
it wasn’t so bad that bit, its a lot better then a wet dream, cause there isn’t any mess in my jocks when i wake up.
after the sp faded, it turned into a dream, this is the part that freaked me out, i meet an evil Morpheus… that was his name and just my expression of the feeling he gave me, its probable the religious man in me that makes me freak out, as soon as i mention god in this dreams, they get wilder.
this Morpheus fellow told me i am going to hell because i killed someone, i saw my self on a strange looking map thing, on a boat heading to hell
and my reaction wait a min, i never killed anyone! and pushed this dream away with all my might, cause frankly it gave me the chills and i didnt wanna go down the rabbit hole! 
even tho i pushed the dream away, she still had me! lol
i had to plead with her, me: come on please i feel like im getting no sleep at all.
she eventually left me alone, my eyes were have open i could move my body yet still talk to her, i literally had to force my self to leave this bed of mine or my prison lol 
this is the mild version of what happened between me and her, its kinda sick what i can get up to with someone willing:)
plus this experience also was very mild in comparison to some of the other experiences i had in sp.
on e thing i cant handle is body tension while in this state, cause while i am in it
i can feel every not and tension in my muscles in my back and shoulders, i really just pray that’s what im feeling!, cause while im in the state it feels as if im getting abused or hurt intentionally, i awoke from this experience with a 0 fear factor which is awesome! cause i want to get more exposure to these experiences so i dont fear them at all.
ty guys for your support 
