Right so this is out of character for me but I’m desperate…
I’m a 32 yo man with 2 beautiful sons, a good job and reasonably happy…I say reasonably because I suffer with depression…having says that my meds are keeping me on an even keel. And I’m definitely not religious ( that’s very important on this )
So last night I had a dream that I died…it was so realistic!!! I dreamt that I was driving to work and next thing I’m smashing myself into a lorry at a very high speed…deliberately…it was suicide. I was in agony…next thing the fire crew are cutting me out and then as if someone snapped a rubber band my spirit flew out of my body and I was no longer in pain…now remember I’m not spiritual at all!!! Then GOD!!! speaks to me, now this strange I can’t hear him through my ears but through my heart??? He tells me that hes going to show me how life would be if u died…straight up! Next thing I’m in my house and my mum and wife are taking the call that I’ve been killed…it was awful…next thing I’m watching my aunt break the news to my eldest son (he’s 6)…I was crying hard…then I’m watching my work mates the the news and in the back ground a news report saying what’s happened it says “Jamie killed himself after missing his medication” (I never miss that). Next thing I’m back alive and I’m walking around feelin really religious like ive discovered how God speaks to us (through our hearts not our ears) like I said in not religious!!!
Please help its doing my head in.