For the past exactly 23 nights I have had a very horrifing experience. It is something that I have not experienced since I was a very young child. I am 19 years old now.
I wake up, but not all of me wakes up. My eyes open, but my body does not respond and there is this constant nagging feeling that this thing, I dont know if its a person or just a presence is at the foot of my bed. Sometimes I even feel this indentation upon the other side of my bed. I try to scream, I try to move I cant do anything. There is this insane pressure on my entire body. The first time that it happened I was so shaken that I was late for work. I am scared to go to sleep, I have called my parents in the middle of the night after this happens in tears, they are worried sick about me because I live more than 2,000 miles from home. I do not know what is happening to me, but as I was growing up my mother used to smudge me before I went to school and I remember one morning her talking to me about lucid dreaming and it wasn’t until today that I recalled this conversation we had many years ago. I called her and she told me that the only thing she could think of was that I was coming out of a lucid dream, but just not fully.
I can’t sleep, I am scared to death of this feeling. Can someone please tell me what is going on. I contacted my family doctor and his nurse only came short of laughing at me. If this isnt the place I need to be, could someone please direct me to some forum where I could find out how to stop this. please.
Old hag? That sounds really odd. I will have to google it. Thank you.
I fell back asleep after posting my orginal post and it happened again, my alarm clock ended up saving me. If someone calls, or my alarm goes off it immediatly vanishes.
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I went and searched on google for old hag. That sort of sounds like what is happening, but it kept saying over and over that it happens while you fall asleep on your back. I never lay down to fall asleep on my back and when I wake during these things, I am always on my stomach or side which is why I cant see what exactly is at the foot of my bed. I hear no noises during the period of time that I can not move. I sometimes have this eerie falling, dizzy sensation like my body flat but on a table spinning. It is ruining my life. I feel absoluly crazy. I am going to try and go back to bed and salvage my sunday morning sleep. I wish I knew how to stop this, whatever it is.
I wish that were the case, its so random. I have even tried going to a friends to sleep for the night, moving my bed, changing my sheets, burning a different incense, burning no incense, sleeping naked, sleeping with socks on. My mother suggested some really weird things.
I tried drinking jasmine tea, ive tried sleeping on the floor and the couch, sleeping with no pillows sleeping with a tv on, music on, with a light on. Ive tried taking sleeping pills so i can maybe bypass the whole thing. For the past few nights my parents have been taking turns calling me to wake me up to ensure that I do not sleep very heavy. Not working.
I know that my college has a sleep study something, im thinking maybe ill just become their test subject.
The thing is I sometimes have this happen more than once a night. The good thing is it doesnt happen every single time I sleep. It doesnt happen during naps, during the day.
I have even tried making my girlfriend stay the night with me and try to hold me all through out the night. Doesnt work, and she said she doesnt notice anything going on with me.
I have to make it stop. I have begun to recognize it before it even starts and Im hoping that I can just shut it out but each time I try I can not resist it. Its like I know that if I could just keep my eyes shut it would pass, but I can not for anything keep from opening my eyes.
This is one of the best ways to get a lucid dream. You are still sleeping, and if you realize that, you can just become lucid with a WILD. BTW, It only matters the postion you fall asleep in, not the position you wake up in. I personally had SP once, and just fell asleep again.
Yeah, shatterspike1’s got the right idea. If, when it starts, you just think “Don’t worry, I’ll soon be doing whatever I want, where ever I want without regard for anybody else! MWA HA HA HA!!!”
Or something like that. Just as you realise that it’s just the completely harmless rocky road to lucidity.
No the thing is, I dont care to lucid dream. I do not want to lucid dream I just want these things to stop. Anything that is causing me to lose sleep, is not good. I fall asleep on my side and wake up on my side, my sleeping positon has nothing to do with it. Let me reiterate this again, I do not want to lucid dream.
It’s both fun and it will ridd you of the Old Hag problems, by making them usefull.
Second of all, I am sure that leaving the light on and the TV on will make Old Hag a lot less frightening. Also, maybe you should consider sleeping with someone else. That will totally remove the frighteningness. I can see why your friend would not notice you going through the bad old hag experience, because you are paralized and cannot move or say anything. The right way for her to notice it would be to see you open your eyes, but having her stay up all night wouldn’t really be an option.
Its just not something I want to do. I have no interst in it right now. As I said in one of my other posts I have tried every single variable that I can think of.
lights on, lights off, tv on, tv off, music, no music, sleeping with tons of clothes on, sleeping nude, sleeping at a friends house, having my girlfriend stay the night, sleeping on the floor, the couch, my guest bed, sleeping on my stomach, my side with pillows all around me, with no pillows, using incense, using no incense or candles, smuding my self and the room before bed, not smudging, taking sleeping aids before i go to bed, taking nothing, leaving my big center light on in my bedroom, leaving just the closet light on in my bedroom, settting my alarm clock to wake me up around when I think it would happen, I have tried wearing an eye mask, hell I even tried drinking an obsurd amount of vodka before bed.
Have you tried trying to regain control of your body starting to move fingers, or feet, and wake up completely? When I was a kid and had “lucid” nightmares, I forcedly woke up that way.
Are you suggesting that I use autosuggestion to get my subconcious to believe that this isnt happening, or that I have used autosuggestion to make my subconcious believe that it is happening?
In a way I do use autosuggestion to get out of this state, I try my hardest to clost my eyes and i tell my self “wake up wake up it isnt real it isnt there wake up” and I wake up.
I have tried such a thing, during my past few meditations before going to my bed I tell my self that it isnt real and that I will have a full nights rest. A few nights ago my mother actually suggested it, she told me to repeat in my head over and over, to invision what I wanted to happen so I said to my self this never happened, it isnt real i will sleep and wake rested…I think that it put me into a really heavy sleep all the meditation and thought, and it couldnt have been more than 45 minuites and it happened, but it did only happen once that night.
Have you tried telling yourself the opposite, I mean instead of wake up nothings wrong. This situation sounds like sleep paralasis to me, the more paniced you get in it, the stronger it gets.
Look at it this way, its something you have experience a big portion of your life. It is a big part of you now and you probably think about it a lot. But, the worst thing it has sone it taken away your sleep. If it hasnt harmed you beyond that, then there is nothing to worry about even though it feels like it.
I would reccomend to learn a bit about SP and maybe practice it.
You speak of sleep as if its nothing, it means a lot to me I am a full time student as well as have a high demand full time job. My sleep is a lot to be taken away from me. I do not get panicked during them now, I did in the first few. It just takes energy and will to make my self close my eyes. There is a lot to worry about, my grades and job are at stake if I can not get some sleep. I know what sleep paralysis is, I am not sure why it was not clear to me the first time it happened that, that is what it is. As far as practicing it, I do. Every night for the past 24 nights. Thats the problem, I really wouldnt mind it every month or hey even every week but every night sometimes two and three times a night is really agrivating me. When I try to just shut my eyes and sleep through it, I cant I wake up. Thank you for your suggestions though, I have gotten into contact with a friend of mine that works with the sleep study program at my school, he has given me the number of one of the professors that I can get a hold of monday.
It sounds as if you’re scared of sleep-related phenomena.
I would at least try lucid dreaming to correct the problem, this way you will confront your fears by realising that this is a positive and not a negative.
