okay, for the past two weeks off and on I’ve been having dreams about my ex boyfriend.
I’ll explain my whole waking life situation. We broke up at the beginning of March. I broke up with him. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Definitely the hardest break up. It took me the longest it’s ever taken to get over somebody. We went out for about a year. The reason I broke up with him was because I found our relationship to be very unbalanced. I did so much for him, but he was very selfish. He didn’t know how to be selfless, he never tried anything other than hugging me and telling me it was going to be okay when I was upset, which most of the time didn’t work. Anyway, it just felt like he didn’t care and When I broke up with him, I pretty much realized that was almost true.
We still hung out a bit after we broke up, but mostly in band because he’s the only person I can talk to in that class 
nobody else really likes me. It was really hard at first… because we decided we’d be friends, but that didn’t last long. I couldn’t handle being around him all the time right after we broke up, it was painful. But I had to be in band class, so I had to listen to him play guitar and I had to see him, but after a few weeks I was alright, and we could talk like friends.
The whole break up experience was actually very eye opening. I became much more focused on me, instead of somebody else. I’ve been lucid dreaming more, and making more friends, and just having a great time, just being ME. I’m much more independent now, and I’ll be completely honest, I am over him.
A few weeks ago he started going out with this other girl. When I first saw them together before they started going out, I knew they were flirting and it made me a little bit jealous, but I quickly realized there was nothing to be jealous of, and I noticed it was just past habits coming back to haunt me He told me a few days later that they were going out, and I was totally cool with it, it was actually quite a relief. Then a week or so later he tells me he’s going to break up with her.
I started having dreams about him around the time I saw him and that girl together for the first time I think… The first few dreams about him were rather horrible. One was that we were in bed together and he started choking me and abusing me and so I ran away into my mom’s room, but he was still there in the morning when I woke up, and he was there the whole dream. I had to hide behind my mom and my friend Eric the whole dream, and whenever he came near me I would freak out and slap him. He didn’t know why I was freaking out at him… he didn’t think it was a bad thing or something. Then the dreams that followed were us slowly starting to get along again, just as awkward friends at first. Then he told me he was going to break up with his girlfriend in waking life, and my dreams ever since then have been all about him, every night, every dream, all night. And in those dreams, we’ve been getting closer and closer and liking each other more and more, and in my dream last night, we were completely together again.
It’s like now that I’m focusing my attention on myself and lucid dreaming more, he’s infiltrated my own thoughts and dreams!!! D:<
You have to understand, I don’t Want this. I don’t want to be with somebody like that again. I’ve made so much personal progress since we broke up. I’m moving before next school year so I’m totally syked to get away from him. Why the hell am I dreaming about him all the time?? I looked up the dream definition for ex boyfriend and I don’t seem to relate to the answer at all. Why is this happening and what can I do to stop it? Maybe there’s something we still need to talk about in waking life, idk… How can I make this stop?
thank you!!