100 just by estimate
or near 100…
Who knows? I’ve probably not been “not lucid” one night this month…
I mean let’s say since I can have 2-3 more LDs a night, that I’ve had 30 this month… I don’t count.
Most of them are either play along with the dream lucidity, or unguided goaless sort of unfocused lucidity though.
I have a tendency to pretend things are real, even think they are real.
and reflecting on last nights dreams has made me realize I should probably be a bit nicer to my brother and my include him in things… how i would do that i have no idea, he’s 7 years younger than me, extroverted, annoying… and sadly getting entangled in all this church stuff that I had to go through and don’t want put into his head.
He’s too young for those kind of ideas to be put into him… he is already effectively brainwashed about everything else (for example the war… hating democrats… ) he doesn’t even watch the damn news. Not that watching it gives you much info but… come on…
So I don’t know, my dreams have been disturbing lately…
I had one where I “woke up” in my grandmas house (why do i dream about that so much?) and well except I was in florida on a band trip (reliving memories perhaps) and I got lucid… saw an amazing sunrise, so beautiful, on a beach… then I had my digital camera, wanting to take pics (wasn’t very lucid mind you) and it got all wet and some spiny sea creature kept poking me… then I woke up and tried to re-enter… when I finally did I couldn’t get to the beach, just her swimming pool… some guy I knew (not a bad guy but annoying) was making fun of me… I just spontaneously jumped up on his chair and punched him in the face… then I was like “whoa, why did I do that” so then I made a portal and I ended up in a Mexican looking version of my grandmas backyard
but then it turned into some oriental place and some monk was acting really weird toward me… i don’t really remember what that was about, but due to his weirdness i decided to make up some weird song parody and we danced down the steps of this temple thing…
i think there was lizard involved in there somewhere… hmm…
it’s not a good example of lucidity really though, except that I was glad I remembered to make a portal (so were the DCs around me)
I don’t know… I have much better things to be working on (like resolving issues and recurring dreams) than to just have pointless sex (IT DOESN’T FEEL GOOD) or flying (that can feel very good and feels like a better use of time)