The key here is not to force your perception to change.
Obviously, following what you’ve experienced, it is safe to assume that if you want to change your perception back, quitting meditation might help you. But I doubt that’s what you want to do, especially since you’ve experienced such a dramatic change. It might appear negative or counter productive to your life, but it’s probably the exact opposite.
As I have already said, it’s all about your resistance to change.
Imagine you were experiencing this kind of perception throughout your life . How would you feel if your perception switched back to the one you used to have (and are trying to get back). Things all feel bad or harmful to us when they’re unfamiliar and obscure, that’s why I think focal meditation might do you good, because it will make you more familiar with your new found perception.
Every being sees the world differently, actually sees the world differently. You are on your own path so treat yourself as the ultimate judge. Search for answers within yourself, always.
Feeling detached and those kind of things, especially since you mentioned it happening after you started meditating, is most probably linked to perceiving a greater extent of the reality, such as ‘energy’ . I will not be surprised if you became clairvoyant soon, actually, I won’t be surprised if you are clairvoyant now and you’re simply not aware of it causing you to feel this way.
Many people notice major changes when they start to meditate, because meditating is… well, it’s more about opening your eyes than closing them.
Steps of action:
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Decide whether you want to pursue changing your perception or whether you want to resist and keep your old one. If any new perception is presenting itself, it’s surely a wider one, otherwise you would’ve been exposed to it sooner. Make your choice.
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If you choose to evolve, accept your perception and your path of learning to live with it. Make a commitment to love and accept yourself no matter what. Love and accept yourself whatever you experience.
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Try to become familiar with it.
We are taught and become used to have a very dim awareness. Try to consciously be aware of yourself, of your feelings, your vision, your perception, your thoughts, everything you’re going through. As well as focal meditation or anything you can think of. Awareness leads to answers.
Be aware that it might take you some time to become comfortable with your new perception, probably a lot less than you can imagine but still… you’ve had a lot of time to get familiar with what you had so a perception jump like you have experienced from meditating might need some time …
The road is always yours to walk.
We are being taught to go out and search the world for answers , only when we sit down after failing to find any answers, we begin to see that the things we were looking for were right inside of us, in plain sight, all along.