hello paus, you may like a trip down memory lane by looking at the Happy 10 year anniversary LD4all! 
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There is a topic about the Waking Life film in the lucidity centrestage forum which you may like to read 
Good luck with your lucid quest 
if you read up about WILD on this forum you may be able to get over that fear hurdle or even decide to use a different method instead… there is a topic about choosing your technique in the knowledge base forum (it is also a sticky topic in the quest forum )
The community is so great, you prob won’t disappear this time 