I’m not sure if what I had last night was a lucid dream or not. To be honest, it feels like just a regular dream, but it had the characteristics of a lucid dream. Keep in mind, I haven’t had a lucid dream to date.
I was in my dream, on a rooftop, and I decided to use reality checks. I looked at my hand and saw 6 fingers. I turned away and looked back and saw 5 fingers, I turned away and looked back and saw 6 fingers distort into 5 fingers. I looked down at my nose, and could see it. I tried to think of more reality checks to do, but couldn’t remember a thing. So I guess I thought, “Oh, I’m lucid.” And so I started jumping high leaps on top of the roof.
But soon after ‘I felt the lucidity disappearing’ (I say that in quotes because it didn’t really feel how I think lucidity should feel, or maybe I just can’t remember it feeling very lucid since I don’t have excellent dream recall). And when the ‘lucidity disappeared’ I woke up (false awakening or real? I have no idea). Then I went back to sleep and attempted to lucid dream again, so I looked at my hand again and I had 6 fingers (or a distorted look set of 6 fingers). I told myself, “I’m lucid” but I quickly started to lose it. I started to spin but that didn’t work, so I ‘woke up’ (again, I can’t be sure if I really woke up or if it was a dream). Then I did it one last time: I went back to sleep, looked at my hand, ‘became lucid’, and either woke up again, or just kept dreaming in a non-lucid state.
Right now: It feels like it was all a regular dream. It feels like I never woke up, but merely dreamt that I woke up.
I don’t really have great dream recall. I can remember about 1 dream per night, but not with a great deal of detail. Is it possible that I had a lucid dream but couldn’t remember it well enough? Or is it just that I dreamt about being lucid without ever reaching lucid state?
Any help is appreciated.