I was just struck with an epiphany at the moment in regards to lucid dreaming:
Despite the raw awe-inspiring nature of lucid dreaming - the phenomenal, manifold emotional experience you get from drifting, cruising or rocketing through the cosmos among a seemingly infinite myriad of possibilities - the sheer emotion and feeling of such experiences can, in my own personal experience, (apparently validated by like experiences) not be left unrestrained without consequences… Unceremonious “falling from grace”. I.e.: ejection from the dream world.
Basically, one must take a monk-like, almost objective standpoint on their experiences in the dreamworld. A jaded, contrived reign on pure emotion. “Too much fun spoils the fun of lucid dreaming.” Emotional highs left unchecked become the Achilles’ heel of the dreamer; you’re orbiting the earth. You let go of the reigns of flight and pause. For just a moment in timelessness. And then, you enter freefall. Freefalling at tremendous speeds, shattering the sound barrier four times over, you feel extreme ecstasy in your abdomen. It jumps to your chest and it’s as if your heart is pounding. Fast, then faster to stay ahead of your rate of descent - and you’re nearing the ground below when - you wake up.
Why? Because you didn’t stay in control of your tremendous influx of feelings. The feeling is like nothing you could ever experience in waking life. Like 1,000,000 elephants and orangutans riding rainbow tsunamis and cyclones through your body. But all it seems to be is an invitation for the forces of the “dreamverse” to disconnect you from its omega presence. (Much like XBox Live does to players using “über-” upgrades or cheats in multiplayer forums.) I liken it much to a video game, actually. The level of emotion you are able to experience in the dream is limited, not necessarily to the amount of time you can stay in a dream.
Think of yourself dreaming in third-person, for example. The “you” in third-person in your avatar. Your emotion meter is on an unseen gauge, but we’ll make it visible in this case. (At the left, uppermost corner of your view. Whatever color you want. Mine is green.) The lucidity meter is just below the emotion gauge and measures your level of lucidity on a 0-5 scale - 0 equating to a normal dream with no lucidity at all, and a 5 equaling the high level of lucidity… Complete control. We’ll put our meter just between 2 and 3 because that’s the highest I believe I have gotten. We’ll call it “basic” or “novice” lucidity. The “in-dream” clock is just above the emotion gauge and keeps track of how long you have been in the dream verse, (hrs.min.sec.) but it’s irrelevant, really.
My theory is, your emotion affects you proportionately to your level of lucidity. So if you are not lucid at all, your emotion gauge fills at an extremely rapid pace, compared to that of a lucid level 5, where the gauge fills relatively slower - maybe even next to not at all. Next to… Next to.
Now, once your gauge fills, the dream ends. The GAME OVER - or rather, DREAM OVER - screen laughs at you with a face of haughty mockery. Going way back to the space freefalling example, that fills the emotion gauge almosy instantaneous. Another notorious dream killer: sex. This is most suredly a femme FATALITY for many lucid dreamers. You barely get a chance to watch your gauge burst from emotion-overfill. Blink and you’ve missed it.
What a crux…
Dreams are so anticlimactic. That includes lucid dreams. They are nonetheless exciting to experience, but they are so ephemeral.
A little more confirmation from other lucid dreamers would be nice, though. When you wake from a lucid dream, is it really because you depleted your time? (No, no dreamtime rollover minutes, so don’t ask.) Or maybe you became a little too excited…?
Personally, that’s the only thing that irritates me about lucid dreaming; I can’t experience any feeling to its fullest without waking up immediately afterward as a result. (Well, that and how gosh darn hard it is to achieve lucidity in the first place…) So, while lucid dreams are all in good fun, they leave me with a bittersweet taste - I’m elated that I was able to dream lucidly, but maybe just a little in the realm of anticipatory-cliffhanger-disappointment that I did not experience it to its full potential. But I return, nonetheless. And maybe that’s what makes lucid dreams so fascinating. The “replay value” - if you don’t mind one more video game analogy.
So, a catch-22 in lucid dreaming - agree? Disagree? Any replies? Other dual-edged blades of lucid dreaming I may have missed?