the sea of dreams

Hi, I’m new here and I have something I would like to share with other people, when I was 15 years old I had a sort of holy/divine/ inspired/ whatever u wanna call it vision, in it I was in the ocean making love to woman (despite this it wasnt one of those dreams) it was blue and beautiful and intense, but then suddenly I was out of my dream body watching myself and the girl spin in the water, never going up for air, I started feeling very sad as I watched this despite the incredible beauty of the ocean, it was a shade of blue I have never seen in real life, then my voice, disconnected from either my watching self or the me who was with the girl spinning in the water said in a whisper “I have been to the sea of dreams when it was not my turn and I shall not swim again” then the girl I was with and my physical body started to spin faster and faster until I could tell no difference between them, then they began to morph into dolphins, seperated and swam away. I was left alone in and endless blue ocean with no physical body. Then I woke up feeling both sad and elated

some years later I discovered the works of writer clive barker, in the book the great and secret show (and to a lesser extent abbarat) a major concept is that of quidditty: the sea of dreams where one gets to “swim” 3 times during their life, once when they are born, once when they first sleep with their true love and once just before they die, a several characters try throughout the story to get into the sea of dreams when it is not their turn, obviously this story struck a chord with me since I read it well after this dream
Perhaps Clive Barker is really onto something with this concept of the sea of dreams? have any of you ever had a dream at all in this vein? if not what interpretations could there be for my having this vision? Could I ever have it again? this is something that has haunted me for a number of years and your input is much appreciated

that is beautiful ,

i had an experience in one of my first lucid dreams,

and i mean that, it is very beautiful , “give me the ocean” !

where i simply found a place of shimmering rainbows and so much beauty that i fell to the ground weeping in joy ,

it is not somewhere i could go by trying to, and it is somewhere i really only went once, and i was about 13 - 15 when it happened.