Dream #2
I’m at some place that has this slide… you go down it, it’s fun, it presents you with things that entertain you… ego-like desires perhaps… and as you start going deeper and deeper you see this “light at the end of the tunnel” which is kind of full of grey around a circle of white that doesn’t stay white entirely and doesn’t look totally pure… a voice then informed me that “if you go all the way, you will die.” but I already knew this and thought “okay, cool” you know, ego-loss, etc…
so I stared at this dot of lightness, and a bunch of strobing changes of black/white happened which could be loosely controlled by my mind… I eventually came out of it and somehow or another my following dream was impacted by the experience… I had a field of vision somehow “dominated” in some unknown way (yet known to me at the time) by this experience, and if I wanted to “switch modes” I would twirl my finger around until the circle appeared and sort of make a yin-yang with it and change the color balance around… and black was always attached to white in the yin yang itself, as you could not have one without the other [something i had discovered while awake a long time ago]
Then I go outside and some guy crashes a jeep into our “yard” except our yard is flooded with water and isn’t really a yard at all… so I help him get out and then effortlessly position his jeep out on dry land with my mind much ala starwars and Yoda saving luke’s x-wing. Usually it’s hard to gracefully maneuver objects, but I did it perfectly until I started hesitating my skills, and then imagined faults started to seep their way into the actions.
I had taken a lot of melatonin at the time [and a small amount of cannabis to get rid of my stash out of paranoia] and prior to having this dream I was lost in a deep near-sleep trance to jolt awake to some sort of orangeish frequency and I sort of freaked out and felt really trippy for a bit. I’ve been able to follow my thoughts to a near-sleep level and actually “make decisions” in this state… sometimes I cannot recall them, but they seem somewhat insightful, and hopefully symbolic rather than literal.
Dream #1 I call “Galactic Red Rover” and is quite the more interesting… I had it a week or two ago. I’m in some sort of building that has a casino like machine that dispenses LSD and a few other drugs… I think I take a tab, and anyway I later WILD into my apartment and mess with my guitar. I paint it with a very nice blue color scheme and make random art appear on it with my mind [oddly enough this art looks a lot like art from the band Dredg’s newest cd, but i had not yet seen that art in person as i had never looked at the inside of the cd liner, and i went to see the band the next day]… then my friend appears out of nowhere and we start jamming out, and some other guy is there who I don’t know playing a violin or cello.
So then I illustrate that we are dreaming by moving objects around, destroying my tv (only to have it repaired in the next scene) etc… but they are still kind of unsure.
I then take the friend and we jump out my window into a sort of play-world and I’m running up to this house that kind of looks like one of the toy-houses that children have to play inside of, but is a restaurant and full sized… and i’m trying to jump all the way up and over it but can’t.
A girl I recognize is there… and there are a few other people trying to do this with me… when some sort of “general” appears and starts yelling at me to get down. Well I have the general feeling that I “shouldn’t” be doing this because people don’t want me to, but I don’t really care and I make myself a jet-pack to try to jump over it again…
and that’s when hundreds and hundreds of people all dressed in monk-like robes appear and march in with leaders. Specifically the first I see are orange… the next yellow… and then slightly more sophisitcated, green.
The orange leader is a jerk, some sort of uptight arrogant general… I go up to the yellow leader who looks like someone I have seen before [and in fact in real life, I swear I saw him the next day at a concert doing a sound check] and he’s completely silent to the questions I’m asking him. (i’m assuming the colors have to do with chakras and the people are members of that element, as in, their personality matches that chakra color) … and the green are also silent.
I decide to go with the green, being the color of the heart chakra… but the orange had been pressuring me to go with them, and since I didn’t feel any sense of “welcome, join us” from the others… I was just kind of lost in the middle of these three groups that were all heading off somewhere unknown… so I go with the orange.
In the orange I meet Daniel K. who I haven’t seen or thought of in a long time… and a few other friends and people that went to my HS but I wasn’t really “friends” with per se… and we march off into this building and go up all these long sets of stairs, and suddenly I can hardly climb them like I’m actually having to exert energy to do so.
All the while I’m struggling to stay asleep, as I feel what is happening is very significant and I have to bear witness to it… we make it up the stairs and sit in some stands… and there is about to be some HUGE competition of hundreds of people… who at the time were supposed to be REAL DREAMERS… and I just don’t know what’s going on… I try to ask the leader questions but as soon as I shout out dozens of others shout out and my voice is muffled.
So… I get the feeling that I have been using my lucidity powers wrong… that they shouldn’t be for pleasure and showing off to people… that they should be used to help maybe? But all the same, why shouldn’t I use them? There is popcorn sitting at the bottom of the stands and I float it up to Daniel and I, but I get the feeling that that was another thing I shouldn’t have done.
We then pile up and get in line, initially we were going to be boxing, and I had no idea why… but now we were playing a monstrous game of red-rover.
Well first of all, I was in the back of the line and knew I wouldn’t be able to stay awake… so I ran to the front with my hand outsretched, searching out for the person that “felt me” and would outstretch theirs to let me in line… a few did and I took the hand of a girl… she looked an awful lot like me and a few dazzling (though this one was less pretty) DCs I’ve encountered… so I asked her if she was my anima… she said “I don’t know.” … well, neither did I, so if she was then that was a proper answer.
So… ah yes before I did this I asked the “coach” what was going on… I said “one question!” then I asked him 3… something about whether this represented chakras, whether this was really important, and something else… all questions were indeed important… and he said “the answer is yes to all 3” … but I expected him to say that.
So we pile up against another team, whose color I cannot remember, perhaps yellow… and I start using my lucidity to control the outcome to keep me in the game, but quickly realize this isn’t fair… I’m trying to hold on rather desperately to that girl and fearing that they wouldn’t call me or that someone wouldn’t try to break through where we were.
It was as if this game determined who would be weeded out of the dream world forever, a sort of humane game of “survival of the fittest” and… one person was called… he didn’t make it through… another was called and came rushing to me and the girl… I kept hold of her hand but I was feeling so weak… I was about to wake up any second and I couldn’t stay in this much longer… as if this game was the ultimate test of your power to retain lucidity… the person called comes crashing through and breaks our chain.
and I wake up confused and extremely interested.
I think maybe these people were fragments of my personality symbolizing some sort of change that is/was coming.
all I know is i’ve been somewhat more careful to use my lucid dreams for better purposes lately (although I’m not sure if becoming X-men and killing a tyrannous “sith lord” that has control of my home town qualifies as proper use… but… it was one of those LDs where you just play along with the plot)
So yeah, I felt like sharing the red-rover dream in particular a long long time ago, but I didn’t have access to the boards when I had the dream… I have it written down on paper and will probably come back and fill in a few missing details later, maybe.
But I must say, my dreams are getting more and more interesting, and more and more lucid even during the first REMs… the only obstacle is they seem to last so long that I don’t entirely remember them when I wake up.
I also asked to be reuinted with my childhood self last night (the night of dream#2) so, maybe that’s why i had the x-men theme going on… and this girl appeared who I hadn’t thought too much about in a while, though who was significant to me when I was younger.
Whatever is going on, my dreams are more significant than they used to be, and I’m thankful for it… it seems like sleep never lasts long enough… yet so much is done even in the first 3-4 hours…