hi guys… i’m hoping you can give me some friendly advice
anyway… the story goes like this. i’ve been trying to pursue LDs for quite a while, on and off, but i’ve started back up around two weeks ago, and going at it quite actively. and in this process, i’ve had one LD, but that was a week ago. i’ve tried like every trick in the book (is there a tutorial i haven’t yet read…?)… the only one that seemingly worked was MILD that one night, but… the strange thing - ever since then i’ve been doing pretty much exactly the same thing, but no results whatsoever
as many RC i do in the day - none of them even try to transfer to my dreams. trying to be lucid all the time or asking yourself what you were doing doesn’t seem to work either. also, it feels like i’ve started even going downhill - i stopped remembering any dreams at all! and i used to have good dream recall, maybe at least one a night, now - just blackness. usually i’ll wake up at 5, realise “today didn’t work either” and go back to sleep all sad… at first when i used to wake up at 5 like this, i tried WBTB or something similar, but it never worked. that technique is also bad for me cause i either can’t go to sleep or wake up with a massive headache.
anyway, it’s beginning to really bring me down. it’s like when i wake up every morning, it seems like it’s worse and worse, i get more devastated. nothing helps, i’ve seriously tried everything (and i wasn’t that devastated the first few tries after it worked). now it seems like it would have been better if i didn’t get that LD in the first place, cause now it just drives me insane
also, in the past… i’ve had like 4 more, but… they were all so random! like… i would have dropped LDs for 4 months, and then i’d just talk to my friend about them and tell him how awesome they are, and boom - short LD. other times though, i’d try all the techniques, motivation and everything - nothing. so it seems to me like no matter what i do, i don’t get to choose at all. LDs seem to come 5 times a year and when THEY chose it, it’s so weird. like no matter what i do, they won’t come when i want them to. because in the past they only happened when it was completely unrelated with RCs, MILDs, WILDs or anything else. the only move forward that i’ve made since those random dreams was that they used to always fade, and i’d wake up. last time i had an LD, it didn’t fade, but turns out my goal was too short, so after doing what i had planned it just became an ND in less than a minute.
now i know most of you experienced dreamers that are here didn’t start off easy either, probably. could you share some stories from your beginnings? like… so i wouldn’t feel like you’re all super-human LDing at will and i’m something like disabled it would really help if i knew what you guys struggled with.
also, any kind of advice is very welcome… if you have any thoughts, i would love to hear them, cause i’m all out of options here …
sorry for the long rant. a big thank you to everyone who replies!!