(just finished writing it, sorry it’s so long but I’d really like answers cause i’m really confused)
OK i was reading these forums before i went downstairs to my room. Then I watched part of Aliens 3 and painted my nails then went to bed in a half hour or so probably around 12:30am. I had my alarm set for 4:30am and was counting backwards 100, 95, 98, 97, 96, 95 I will dream about cars, 94, 93, 92, 91, 90, I am dreaming…And keep repeating these until I fell asleep. Is this the MILD method or what, (not sure about all these definititions, it’s been awhile since I’ve been here. Anyhow I don’t think I dreamt about cars but at 4:30am the alarm went and scared the crap outa me and I didn’t know what it was at first then realized it wasnt going about so I got outa bed and tried to turn it off. Except ya know how when certain limbs fall asleep usually cause it’s been in one place for awhile and goes numb then tingly? When it was completely numb, never been like that before. So I was standing there smacking the alarm with this numb arm and actually had to use my other hand cause to turn it off I have to turn a nob to the right spot. Then i went to the bathroom, brushed my teeth blah blah, jumped up and down a couple times to make sure I was awake and since I couldnt get online to look at LD stuff and had nothing in my room I sat down to watch another half hour of Aliens 3. Then I jumped around some more to make sure I was awaker and layed down again. Now I heard it’s extrememly important not to move while trying WILD but as soon as I know I’m not supposed to move i suddendly have little annoyances like a little inch or I need lip gloss. And my nosed was stuffed so i was breathing through my mouth and my mouth dried out grrrr on this stuff. but i started counting backwards from 100 and saying thinking in my head I am dreaming every 10 counts. It started getting a lot harder and my mind started to wander, I was seeing pictures and stuff of people and places I knew. Is this the hypnogoic (dunno how to spell) images and stuff? Cause It was keeping me distracted from the counting. I dont know if I was hearing stuff but I started feeling maybe a slight vibration in my leg and a tingle in my arm but maybe that’s just me thinking that’s supposed to happen. And shortly after I fell asleep. But I’m still really ify on this. Like I’ve read a bunch of the WILD forums and stuff but what exactly am I supposed to do when I get these tingles? Am i supposed to just go into a dream? I heard someone say something about trying to move?
Later on though I think I did go lucid in part of a dream. I was outside wal-mart where my bf works waiting for him to get off work. Except it wasn’t wal-mart it was some other place. Big fancy hotel/restaurant/indoor theme park/mall. The place rocked. Anywho I was with some kids trying to skateboard or something. I think it was some kid I work with and his friends. But I wasn’t that bad on the skateboard while waiting for my bf. It was weird cause in the dream it felt like I wasn’t waiting for just him, like at the back of my mind i was trying to remember to LD or something.
And this is where it gets kinda embarrasing cause when he came out my intentions where very clear. I wanted to get some. Even if it was in the Super Wal-Mart’s parking lot. Lately I’ve been having a lot of dreams like that. Where I want to get some and I do and the second I do I go lucid. I think I actually told him something like that. Like, “Hey when we have sex tell me I’m lucid”, I said something like that to him. He didn’t tell me that but I went lucid and had an orgasm in my sleep. That’s what’s been happening a lot lately. I’ll have sex with him or my ex and get off in my sleep. One time i think I was lucid cause I was thinking, “this is great i want to again” and I did a bunch of time until it woke me up.
Also maybe it was just after this dream or before it or maybe after another dream, at some point in the nite I woke up and closed my mouth. I was still breathing through my mouth (trying not to move to try WILD) and my mouth was all dried out. I think it was aftter this dream.
Basically the bottom line off all this is…Did I try MILD before bed and WILD after I got up after a couple hours of sleep the way I’m supposed to try them or did I miss something?
PS> THX a bunch for reading and any help…i’ll luv u forever