Okay, I’m going to apologise now for the essay I’m about to write, but it would really help if someone could answer my questions. so i guess i should start from the begging, here goes
Maybe 2, or 3 years ago i found out about lucid dreaming. I started to research, and soon enough found myself falling into things like RC, and dream recall. i did this solid for maybe around 2 months, until I fizzled out of doing this with no results. i would do reality checks at least once every hour, and had filled up like 20 A4 pages of dreams i had. But i got nowhere.
Then i kinda fell into lucid dreaming again around 6-10 months ago. But this time it only lasted a few weeks, i got bored fast and remember my failure of last time. again I did frequent reality checks as well as recorded dreams every night. (on both occasion’s i tried lucid dreaming, i got to like 2-4 dreams recalled every night)
So, three days ago i was answering a random question about lucid dreaming for someone very late at night. Straight after i fell asleep. i woke up that morning and faintly remembering having a lucid dream. Within this dream, i told myself i was dreaming, but still followed the ‘story line’ of the actual dream - if that makes any sense? but i had no control what so ever, and i started to look into lucid dreaming once again.
I had come across the method WILD before, but never took any notice cause it sounded super hard. i tried it for the first time two days ago (the night directly after the first possible lucid dream) but couldn’t keep it going after the stage where my eyes went insane, so i drifted into normal sleep.
I tried this again last night, but just fell into normal sleep. But after a few hours (maybe around 4) upon waking up this morning, knowing it i was more likely to become lucid, i tried WILD again. It took a long time, and i didn’t happen the same as it did the first time i tried it. I’m guessing this was because i wasn’t tired and so it took longer for me to fall asleep.
But yet again i had a lucid dream. This time (in the actual dream) i was in bed, and like iv seen before when i first researched WILD, i found it very hard to move and open my eyes. Every time i did open my eyes i was able to slowly move, but every time i closed my eyes i ended straight back into bed, and had to start the whole trying-to-move-out-of-bed process again.
This dream i did have control, but not much of it. im short sighted (things aren’t fuzzy, just slightly blurry), and this whole dream is what it’s like for me to see things from a distance. But it wasn’t even blurry, i just don’t remember it (which I’m guessing is because of the whole no practise with dream recall in a long time, right?). i did have some control, like i knew what was happening, and in a way i chose to do it but i wasn’t quite in my mind if that makes sense. i tried flying, which only slightly worked but again i don’t really remember this. I also tried something which i thought was really hard to master while lucid dreaming. i wasn’t thinking that at the time, it was for personal gain but i tried having sex, with several different men, and i didn’t wake up, or even feel the dream slip away. Again i had very little control, so i can’t tell if this was actually my conscious mind doing this, again if that makes sense. but towards the end of the dream i think i lost lucidity, because i was talking to 2 different women like they were my best friends, as if i knew them my whole life, and i wouldn’t have done that if i knew what i was doing.
My questions:
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why now? do you think its the technique that’s working for me? Because i tried so hard the last times i tried to become a lucid dreamer, but got nowhere, even though i was doing things like reality checks.
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im guessing when my eyes went insane, that was me being conscious during REM sleep? Well, why didn’t it happen this morning, when i tried it again?
3)so when my eyes went weird, and i know its command but i kept seeing like coloured movement. it was like when you stare at the sun or light and you close your eyes, you see that weird moving coloured light? that’s what was happening that first night, but it didn’t happen this morning. why?
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When i tried WILD this morning, it was really slow to start with, but then like all of a sudden, i could feel my body on the bed but also myself hovering above it. it sounds really weird, but you know how sometimes you can see two of things? that’s how my body felt. like i was laying on the bed, and i could feel that, but i could also feel my body moving out of my body and up and away from my laying body. im guess this was AP? if so, how does it relate to lucid dreaming?
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was everything blurry, and un -remeberable because i hadn’t been doing any form of dream recall? would that make my dreams more clear? if not how can i?
6)Like i said, i had sex with at least two men that i can remember, but I’m pretty sure there was more.( well doesn’t that sound bad ) i thought from previous research that this is a really hard thing to master? or is it different with gender?
- within the dream, i couldn’t feel anything. like , when i was flying i couldn’t feel any wind. or when i was landing, i couldn’t feel anything beneath me. when i was having sex, again i couldn’t feel anything. why is this? was it because of lack of control? or lack of memory, and dream recall?
is it strange that i had 2 dreams like this in just 4 days? i know the first one wasn’t really a lucid dream, but i was as close as i had ever got on beyond that point.
- i know i can’t really chose, and i know of people that have taken years just to get their first lucid dream, but is it possible i could have regular lucid dreams with the WILD method? i know its early days, but I’d love to have a lucid dream with actual control that was vivid, y’know?
Again, i know this is like a huge essay, but i would love to get some answers, as im rather confused.
Moved from Lucid Adventures. (and welcome to LD4all )