Ever read your older posts?

[Bruno]

@Over a year ago

Hey, dreamers!

My name is Bruno Ansarah, and I live in Brazil. In one week, I’ll be 17 years old.

It’s summer down here in the Southern Hemisphere, and the landscape looks just beautiful through my bedroom’s window (a large door-like window). It’s been raining a LOT lately here in São Paulo, and today the whole city looked amazing at the sunset, covered by clouds all around.

Seeing this magnificent view through my window, I got to remember some of my dream landscapes, and of course, the dreams themselves. And then, feeling a bit nostalgic, I decided to join this forum, as LD4All had helped me a lot when I was fifteen and started having nightmares on a daily basis, some of which developed into insomnia. I had experienced lucidity in one or two of these nighmares, and started looking for ways to trigger lucidity again, which I came to found in this site.

It didn’t just work things out, not rightaway, but I started making RCs everywhere and got to become lucid more and more often, until one day I stoped having nightmares. A couple of weeks later though, I stopped remembering my dreams.

The rest of my fifteenth and my sixteenth years were quite busy, and I couldn’t focus on remembering/recording my dreams and experiencing lucidity.

Now, though, my life is way calmer, and I found time to paint, cook, write, blog, sport and—why not?—give lucid dreams a try. So here am I, wish me luck!

I wasn’t telling all the truth. I had a Death dream the day I joined LD4all again, that’s what made me look for the site after over two years…

Hey, guys!

I’m still not lucid in my dreams (and to be honest with you, I started remembering them on an almost daily basis a month or so ago) but I think this was worth sharing.

I’m a synaesthete, and in my dreams, I reach even higher levels of synaesthesia.

But first I have to explain how it feels like in waking life. Synaesthesia is not about feeling more than other people. When I see my best friend, Nana, I don’t see her green, or visualize green while seeing her, I just know she’s somehow green. When it comes to looking at myself in the mirror, that colour thing gets even funnier as I know myself in a grayscale tone of yellow. I have my skin colour, I see it as you see it, but I look at me and I know myself not only yellow, but greyscale yellow. Go figure.

Also, reading a book’s chapter some days ago, I knew it smell just like whisky, even though I didn’t feel or remind the smell of whisky.

I don’t think know is the most appropriate verb to describe the feel, but I think it helps you get what synaesthesia is not.

So, on to the dream part: when I’m dreaming, I don’t just knoe, I feel. I look at my dreamsky and I feel something silken touching me. I look at Nana and she’s not green, but there IS green, not only knowingness of green, but the colour, manifesting aitself all around.

So I would like to ask how does this synaesthesia thing work with you guys (even if you’re not waking life synesthetes).

Heh back them I did strive to make it clear in my dreams about Shin and my synæthesia. After a while I dropped it and started just narrating the cold facts, but I remember trying to make as many remarks as possible about the sky being silk or velvet and some people being allegretos while others felt more like grey tangos etc. Above all, I did record my back of mind thoughts in the dreams, that was very rich. After a while I got full of explaining my mind is weird, and started just behaving like the ordinary person… I should try to disclose those sensations more often again, especially in my dream journal. d=

My third post was in a topic regarding drugs. The post motivated a user to leave the forum. After a few months of inactivity, it was unfortunately deleted. Some of what I said there— I’m really proud of what I wrote in those posts, and I’m proud of the other users. It was a friendly discussion, very rich and reasonable, very civilized. I remember two members volunteered to stop doing drugs for a while and see how it affected their dreams. Real shame the topic is now gone.

Anyways. Those were my three first posts. Cheers. Did I change a lot?

[color=#cc3333](Heh feels funny to use my mod edit colours… )

Here’s my avatars, I think they kind of tell a story too. My first ever avatar was a dragon tattoo thing:

Which, after a few weeks, Filip kindly turned into a nicer, fancy animated version:

Back then, my username in SeaLife was Shin because I didn’t want people from LD4all to know straightaway it was the LD4all Bruno. So my first SeaLife avatar (whose image I lost) was a big ش (shin, 13th letter of the Arabic alphabet, initial of the Arabic words for “poet” and “demon”).

Later, I asked for T to transform my wallpaper into an avatar and he made this:

Accordingly, I changed my SeaLife avatar to that same Moon. After a while, some people were a bit annoyed because this avatar was slightly smaller than 80px, and looked weird under the rank image (the stars above one’s avatar), so both Fey and Q made fancy 80 px sized avatars for me. I started using Q’s version, saving Fey’s for an especial occasion which never came:

By that time, I changed my SeaLife avatar into a nicer looking shin:

When Moogle gently offered her help to change my SeaLife nick (the option is disabled by default) to Bruno, I changed my avatars again, into pictures of a writer I very much like, called Jack Kerouac:

Finally, when I dropped moderation and the Cloud was merged into the Lounge, I felt I needed to change things again. I wanted something black and blue to match my yellow stars in the rank (the black and white photo used to look cool with the colourful stars, but got rather dull against yellow). I found a brilliant pic of a bottled and a cloud, which was most appropriate, considering Q had given me a bottled piece of the Philosopher’s Cloud in the topic in the mod forum where we were discussing its deletion.

I also made this one a version for MSN messenger and my secret online journal:

Those things really tell a story, don’t they? Perhaps I could post my sig history too. I made post in “Why your sig?” for every signature change except for two (including the latest), explaining the motivation and the sentiment that led me to change it. Anyways. There you go. Forum history. [/color]

[Redifin]

Wow…I found my first post. Nearly 2 years ago, it doesn’t feel that long ago.

Hello everyone! I’m Daniel F. I’m 15 and I’m inlove with dreams. They facsinate me, and baffle me. Someone told me about it, and I was severely interested. The date is 2.11.05. I’ve lucid dreamed before, ON ACCIDENT! So I’m trying to do it on purpose, with everyone’s help, I might can do it! I pray I can!

The thing I want to Lucid dream about is Flying, and RUNNING like 500 miles per hour!

I hope to know everyone here, and lucid dream every night!

God did I use the, “!” way too much… Ugh…grammer…

[Iluminada]

I can’t find the energy or guts to find my first post. But I must admit that I have gone to old posts of mine and read them. Sometimes I’d laugh and other times I wonder “wheretf did that come from”?

I’d definitely say I’ve changed since my first posting. Props for posting such a fun topic.

[Iluminada]

Thanks to a good little doobie, I saw my first post.

Boy, I have changed and the post was made almost 2 and a half years ago…

[MatrixManNe0]

@I

Hello, all.

I suppose this is the best place to start off posting, though I usually don’t post much on any forums I go to.

By the way, if you type in MatrixManNe0 on a search browser, all of what shows up in the results is referring to me. I just thought that was exciting to know in case you wanted to know more about me 'cause you’re a crazy stalker person.

@I

Laidas, last night I successfully performed a RC in a ND (hands check) and counted 6 fingers on each, and realized that I was dreaming. Of course, right after, something happened which caused me to forget.

The entire day I made it a habit to RC randomly about 10 times per hour (don’t know how normal that is/isn’t, but I kinda want to experience LD again after not having done it for a year). Also, I unsuccessfully tried a WILD that night, but I don’t think that explains it. My dreams were very fuzzy and I couldn’t remember the first one(s).

EDIT: Do you think it’s better, if you have a string of RC’s, to do them all at once, or to do them at different times? To do the same order each time you RC, or to mix it up?

I think I’ve stayed the same, but become more active in other topics coughTestingForumcough. Except my DJ entries. I shudder at the sight of my old ones…

[BlissfulBlues]

These past 51[size=84]6/7[/size] weeks have been quite the ride for me, and I’m sure plenty of people who have been around during that time know how much I’ve changed. First of all, I started out as BlissfulBlues—[color=#7777ff](Or BlissfullBlues for that matter, as I was careless enough not to check the spelling of “blissful” as I created the name). [/color]

Oh right! I became a notorious spammer coupled with the one and only Huey, and I’ve learned my lesson like a good little troublemaker.

Before then, I had at least one well-mannered post, and that turned out to be my first post here! Lucky me.

@I

[color=darkblue]Personally, I’m glad to say that I’ve had my first lucid dream experience [that I can rememer] last night, too. For a brief moment, I had experienced low-level lucidity. I was outside somewhere down my street when I started flying just for a little while, and when I landed, I thought to myself, “I was just flying, so this must be a dream.” The first thing that I thought of to do in my dream was to transform myself into a bird, but all I remember was looking down at my foot to see that it was, in fact, changing to look like a bird’s foot. It looked really flat and squashed, so it didn’t seem to be working so well. Instead, I decided to transform myself into a very attractive woman (I already look good, but I guess I just wanted to get the attention of some men I saw down the street). I couldn’t see what I looked like, but I had a mental image in my head, and I think it was working because I did get their attention. This is all I can really recall about the lucid part of my dream until I soon forgot and just kept going with the flow of the dream.[/color]
I’m pretty sure I was lucid at the moment, so I’m not really asking so much as I am just sharing my experience. It was still very interesting, though, and I cant wait until that happens to me again!

It was somewhere around here that things started to go downhill. However, at least moogle promised to protect me from Wolf, Huey, and Bruno. Afterwards I had my share of immature posts, but then again at the same time I was well behaved in my first DJ. Maybe both personalities helped to balance each other out, at least I hope so.

[Bruno]

ld4all.com/forum/viewtopic.p … 660#210660

AWWW!

Look at 16–year–old Bruno saying “(remember I’m 16 and hadn’t been in love many times).”

Awwwwww

[HebrewB]

My first ever post…

@me

Hi everybody, i’m new, in fact, i just joined about 5 minutes ago. I decided to join after a mod mentioned this place on a different website forum. I am using the same username as i did on there. MOOP!

My second ever post.

=“me”]If somebody could answer this, then i will finally be happy. I asked this, because one night, i actually dreameed a totally pointless dream. I dreamt that i woke up, saw there was nothing to do, so i went back to sleep. Why did i show absolutely no imagination in this one, yet so much in others?

Third ever post.

@me

Have you ever tried sleeping with your eyes open? Works for me.

Have I changed since then?

[Morpheus_nuu]

I don’t have any old posts . I’m still kinda new . But, this is my first one…

@"The Ninja Spud [T.N.S.

"]I think I almost have the dream recall part down. But, my dreams go by so fast. I don’t know if i’m just not remembering most of it or what. And most the dreams I remember are nightmares.

Can sombody help me?

It ended up my dream recall sucked . lol.

[Win_Laik_Pya]

i was reading my first dream diary post

It’s funny what 6 months can do to a person, eh?

Ahhh 3 posts for one dream And i remember i didn’t understand what moogle meant by editing posts

and it seemed i was highly enthusiastic or hyper when i wrote that one.

[blazinfish]

I used to be such a dumb stoner, and it was highly reflective in my posts. I joined around 3 and a half years ago, and have been active here on and off for a while. But i think ive changed a lot.
When coming back the last time, i almost created a new account, because im slightly embarrased by how i used to talk/act around here.

[MoinsQ]

I changed too if I look at my first posts, about a year ago… But that’s because I’m still 15 and everyone changes around that age.

[ShaggE]

Hehe, my first and second posts consisted of me thinking I had an LD then realizing it was a broken fan.

[Painocus]

I was a BIG jerk before, and my writing was horrible too

[Bruno]

@Daniel

I was a BIG jerk before, and my writing was horrible too

Your spelling was indeed not too often correct, but I kind of liked it that way. I really, really did.

[Shaper]

@painocus

I was a BIG jerk before, and my writing was horrible too

No need to worry, my writing was often poor also (English being my first language, I find that sort of shameful )

[BlissfulBlues]

I just looked through a sampling of some of my oldest posts and was surprised that I wasn’t embarrassed at all by my past actions. Well, to lighten the burden, I never had spelling and grammar issues. But I’d forgotten how goofy and entertaining I could be sometimes, and I feel like I’ve only changed minimally since then. Not that a year and a half is exactly a long time.

Well, I may have grown a little bit.

[The_Nameless_One]

Well, my first posts were all about lucid dreaming and my old self.

I have learned some lessons IRL and I’m different now. Mostly worse, ie more cynical and selfish. But besides that or a meteor, I see little other choice when dealing with people.

[sno_isulli]

I haven’t in a while, though it’s always a lot of fun and kind of excruciating to go back and see how I used to write and act. The sad thing is that some of my oldest posts aren’t around anymore. My DJ was tossed in the archive, and the LUE thread was “magically cleaned up” after several years of existence. It still makes me weepy to think about it.

[moogle (mognet)]

This seems a good place to make post 10000 and take a quick trip down memory lane

It only took 2 days to feel comfortable enough to declare my age
How old are you? Part II

Don’t worry infectionO if I ever get the urge to talk about “the good old days” I’ll go into a dark room and lie down.
The main danger is I might slip into “mum mode” and start telling you all what to do and saying to leave the forum and get on with your homework instead.

I don’t think I had to go for that many lie downs

Before 2 weeks had passed, I felt safe enough to talk about my faith and the result was the personal spiritual beliefs topic … the only drawback being a cringemaking first post … since I wasn’t sure if the other member would be willing to discuss the subject.

I’ll wait for you here.

ooo I was a naughty chatspeaker!!!

And the post where I admitted I was an addict!
Site was down,- 2 weeks of posts lost

No matter what happens something good comes out of it. When I couldn’t get to the site I looked at Sealife and the OLD forum where the ip numbers where shown…and I recnogized quite a few names. …

The beginning of my online DJ … it looks a lot different to my current one with only one or two smilies…
I was surprised I started one so soon since sharing dreams is so personal

I think that’s enough of my secret history being revealed