*anything that is written between * those * marks was added as Im writing this to help explain to the reader.
The experiences described are not all. I have chosen the ones that acted as important steps and/or I experienced new sensations during them.
Or they have a different , unique value to them.
In the first exercises , I explain in a more detailed fashion my physical feelings etc.
That doesn’t mean they are not present later on…
As I explain, most of them are very known to me and only a few are new.
I explain it to help you understand physically how it feels for me.
Gateway Voyage 22-28/11/08
23.11
First Exercise
I remember thinking about a discussion I had with a very skeptic guy related to new age and psychic powers specifically. Gradually, as usual, my consciousness begins concentrating more and more “in my head” and less in my body. I felt streams of energy going through my right hand and little in my left hand. * I like to call this feeling the light shower and it is my physical translation of energy going through my physical body, it feels as waves of light are going through my body *
As usual, disconnection of energetic arms (unintentionally). Right arm hovering over physical one. When I tried to move it, I could for a bit until it snapped back into the physical (that’s what it felt like). With my left hand, the situation was different, I felt both the energetic and the physical hand at the same time. I didn’t feel my physical nor my second legs throughout the whole experience. I didn’t feel light through them as well nor the wave phenomena a common experience for me, will be explained later. Somewhere during the exercise I did some energy movement exercises and that got me to feel the vibrating in the legs.
Second Exercise
Sharp, strong pain in my right shoulder, shortly after I start. Disappeared quickly.
My mind was filled with chatter. Felt the light shower shortly after beginning the exercise, very intensively in both my legs and hands. This lasted throughout the entire experience, accompanied with the vibrating feeling. At some point I concentrated on my feet, and with every concentrated thought on them, I sent a signal that went up through them and stopped when he met my waist. (energy wave signal), somewhere along the count to ten, I felt The Shaking Area Phenomena This is something I experience a lot when meditating, in the past it was extreme, with time, it became more and more normal and less intense, it feels like the area, the field of vision (With physical eyes closed) moved back and forth fast, hard to explain Now, I felt something I never felt before. As if someone grabbed my second left leg and tried to pull me outside of my physical body using my leg. I literally felt my leg being pulled and with every pull , I could feel my entire second body, going out of phase. It disappeared eventually. I see a golden light and I remember the golden light I saw when doing the Focus 10 exercise at home.
Then I listened to music.
Queen - Don’t Stop Me Now
Rolling Stones - Dangerous Beauty
The Beatles - Back in The USSR
and another beatles song I cant remember
Each one of them lasted for a few seconds. Now, as I am lying on the mattress, writing this experience, I still feel light showers in my right foot, minutes ago it was in my right palm. During the experience, my (second) right hand started rolling away from my body. When I thought of my left hand, I realized it is completely disconnected, I could freely move it in what appeared to be a complete non physical environment, I moved it and didn’t feel anything at all wherever I put it. I couldn’t feel the blanket, the mattress, anything. During the exercise, I saw images, one of them was of a human body. Experienced , as usual, inability to make upper body go to sleep.
Third Exercise - Resonant Energy Balloon
When I start, I see a snake of white energy, going around me. Felt a pain in the upper right part of my head and also a light shower in my head , for the first time in my life (and the last), I saw light shedding out of my head dropping and uniting to create the snake which moved around my body and into my feet. Another thing I felt for the first time was a light shower in my body and it kinda went out of phase (just a bit). Very intense light streams in my feet. I began thinking about physics, quantum mechanics, reality. I remember thinking whole heartedly, that every one has his own game and can make whatever rules he wants to. Definitions for pain, joy etc… I was thinking about a book I was reading, about a teacher of mine, about monks and more. When we entered focus 10, consciousness focused in my head. Body lost significance, usual feelings of heaviness, sensitivity to movements, sounds etc. Thoughts tend to create a bigger echo around them and to drive you inside instead of scattering around (as they tend to be more Subconsciously related, hypnagogic kinda), feeling the body was some distance away.
Back in C-1, could barely feel any difference, still hovering somewhere. My thoughts were a bit more conscious and tend to scatter faster. Body felt a bit more in tact *1 is the only command that doesn’t really work for me : D * In focus 10, (generally, when relaxed). As my mind was scattering , I began concentrating on my breath for some 10-20 seconds. I got incredibly relaxed in those few seconds and some time afterwards, sounds became hypnagogic and my breath turned into a mechanic sound that I was suddenly aware of and quickly it was gone and I began hearing indian kind of drums and shouts for about 7-14 seconds, then I heard an electronic beat. There was a time during the exercise in which I felt that everything was turning around me, in two ways *one was like being in the center of a carousel and everything was turning around me, the second was as if I was inside a toiler paper when it was turning around me (I didn’t really feel I was on a carousel or inside a toilet paper ^^ The toilet paper and the carousel are “the outside world” *.
Fourth Exercise - Maps
I was relatively concentrated. Had a couple of thoughts about the experience, the place Im in and the people.
I thought I was seeing some point inside the room (As in the transparent eyelid phenomena) but it was just a hypnagogic image. When I noticed I was seeing, it faded away (as usual…)
I created my energy bar and it was shining.
I fixed the not so glowing parts in my physical map.
The emotional one was very balanced, I tried to make it all more shining, for some reason, I couldn’t, that’s when I found myself traveling inside it, inside a blue tunnel.
Then, it was shining intensely.
When the exercise was over and I opened my eyes, I experienced a new feeling.
Everything was turning around, flashing etc and looking “unreal” much more than it usually does, much more than it ever did, even after long meditations. Seemed very unreal indeed.
Fifth Exercise - Purpose
I click out at some point little after we reach f-10. I remember a part in which I was experiencing something between hypnagogic dream imagery and a dream in which I told someone about a problem he is having to realize I am also having that same problem. Actually, that was the answer I was looking for.
Summary of day I and Focus 10
Focus 10 for me is a relaxed state, and the techniques I learned helped me relax faster. Nothing significant other than that.
Couple of new feelings such as feeling someone pulling my second leg, having light streams in my upper body and head and the intense after-experience.
Going to sleep…
I meditate for a couple of minutes. I remember at one point how I used to experience dream hypnagogic imagery this will be called HI from now on when I laid in bed for some 20 minutes. Interestingly enough, dream HI came shortly, I remember one image which had a woman that reminded me of Carol. Then the HI developed into a dream in which I was leaving this farm into an icy/snowy place to ski with a friend. Just before it completely develops into a dream, I focus my consciousness back onto my physical body. A few seconds after that, something just happened and I began falling. I lost my physical body and was falling into space. It was black and I saw a couple of symbols in the darkness forming. All I remember is some sort of plane and a star (there was much more than that to it). At first when I started falling, it was a bit frightening. I always wished for this kind of experience but when you’re suddenly falling faster and faster while turning around with no power, it makes you feel something. I quickly calmed myself down and was back in the physical after some time. The whole fall seemed to last something like 10 seconds. It was great. I never experienced it before. I felt as if I was falling but was never present in a such a place.
Day II
Focus 12
In the preparatory process, Im not concentrated and I do anything very fast, just to do it. F-10 is easily reached. Monroe starts guiding us into 12. I feel a strong pain in the center frontal part of my head. I see some symmetrical figure expanding to both sides. As if my field of vision was expanding to both sides. The figure reminded me of an ancient plane’s wings. The pain moved from the center to the right side of my head. Everything is brighter. I feel my field of vision is bigger, wider. I start seeing images of what I thought was the room. I saw some symbol I can’t remember. Extra sensitivity to external sound than in a normal relaxed state. I see a sun going around me, shining from the right side going all the way up and down to the left, everything was much much brighter now. A very intense feeling of oneness with the universe. Body was more lost and far away than in a normal relaxed state or as in F-10.
Second Exercise one of the best
Extreme. Should point out that during the preparatory process, when I opened my box, it played music ^^, some tunes I wrote a long time ago. I closed it without putting anything inside Oo. Nothing too special about the rest of the process.
Suddenly, I remember feeling as if I was dragged somewhere, I was traveling in a special way, fragmented visuals during the travel. I remember during the travel, I completely forgot about the Monroe Institute and everything and I remember saying to myself: “See what happens when you take drugs? Why did I take that?” I remembered where I physically was and I got excited. I stopped moving and I was in a room. I felt very very light as if energy was going through me making it almost impossible not to hover. I jumped and went up and into the wall on my left. I was suddenly in a different and I stopped. I tried walking through a wall and I got stuck halfway through. I saw one of the lamps that are in this big room and I had the feeling this was the room, I tried looking down but I simply couldn’t. Fears were present when I was stuck in the wall but I calmed myself fast and after a while I Went back through the wall to where I came from. It was a completely different place now. Looked and felt like a dream environment. During this “lucid dream” (?), I was in a metallic environment, no one around, I tried summoning people and other places but I couldn’t *I doubt it was actually a lucid dream, as I am able to summon into the dream whatever I want * I walk around and see lots of people coming from somewhere so I go there , fade out pretty soon afterwards. Back in the physical body.
I remember I was seeing at some point (before my short travel) a window in my field of vision. It appeared vivid just as (much more actually) than the physical, it was moving fast all around my field of vision and it was precisely a square. I think as I moved into this window, the experience started, but I don’t really remember.
5 Stage Separation
All the normal feelings of relaxation came fast. Didn’t do too well in turning around. Seem to be hard for me, moving second body close to the physical.
*I am determined to do it ! * I was suddenly elsewhere, I still don’t know if it was out of body or just a dream. It was definitely not locale I or II. I am in this room with a couple of people, I don’t know any of them. They were talking etc but I can’t really remember. It looked like a dream and I could interact with them so it wasn’t locale I but I didn’t recognize the place, the people, or anything at all about that experience so I am doubting this was a dream.
Remote Viewing
Had strong feelings about a circle and lots of people. (relates to the stadium, I guess ^^)
At one point, as I was concentrating on nothing 
I got a strong image of running water. (River)
Nice experience, couldn’t tell the arc and other things but I was definitely satisfied with the stadium , people and water. Made me realize it’s definitely within reach.
Second go…
In the beginning, when I close my eyes and concentrate, I get a feeling of height, hard to explain. It felt as something hollow and not solid as rock though… Just before end I received an image of a vast green space, field like. I didn’t actually see the trees or stone, but still can relate somehow.
Summary of day II and Focus 12
Much more meaningful, lots of extreme experiences. Focus 12 is much more significant for me than F-10. Extra sensory sensitivity, increased field of vision, more complete oneness with the universe, further away from physical body.
Should be pointed out that I recalled a couple of very long meaningful dreams upon awakening (on day III) but that’s a different journal ^^
Day III
Focus 15
Wow!!!
Even further away from the physical body. Barely any connection any more.
I controlled my second hands much better than I ever did. In F-15, I felt a much bigger emphasis on the moment. We got back to 12 and I tried counting to 10, just to see how it will feel. We got back to 15 and I tried counting again. The numbers seemed to echo and it just felt as if the past was deleted. I felt as if the cursor of time was moving and it was impossible to go even a bit backwards and forward. Future and past seemed irrelevant.
Very hard to explain.
I also felt some disassociation from the space. I heard sounds and it was much harder to relate them to a physical location.
Freeflow Focus 15 * one of the best *
So much fun !!
Normal preparatory process.
We get to Focus 15 and I feel it much better than in the first time. Completely in the present, with only that existing. A feeling of being. A very deep meditative state. Nothing seemed to exist outside of the present. Feeling of oneness with the universe. Void kinda feeling. Words I said in my mind seemed to vaporize into the past. The moment seemed invincible.
We were supposed to ask a question.
I asked to see the future of this life , but a lot of other thoughts were in my mind and I also asked to see a past life, future life etc… I was concentrated on one question.
At some point, I start dropping again (like in a previous experience) but without seeing anything. Complete darkness and I was dropping while being flat, back down, after few seconds of dropping I am elsewhere. I am on a moving platform in mid air, watching below me a huge crowd of intergalactic creatures, they looked like the ones from Futurama. So, I am standing in some very intense intergalactic concert on a platform in mid air , and it’s going up , back and away. I look to my left and on the platform, next to me, standing is a baby with a big smile over his face. His face remained exactly the same throughout this experience. He looked and was the size of a baby ( an oversized one though… perhaps weighing the normal weight of 2 babies)
but I knew he was mature as an adult.
I try talking and communicating with him but he completely ignores me.
The platform reaches some pocket in this infinite space and he leaves inside that place. It looked like a backstage of some kind, where the dressing rooms are etc… He went down the spiral steps when two women came in running to treat him, asking him about food, clothes etc… I tried talking to them too but they completely ignored me as well, he still kept his face the way it was and didn’t say anything. Very few seconds after the women came, fade out and I am back in physical. I was sure I clicked out between coming back and now and I became nervous as I though I was missing the next experiences. I immediately jump out of bed and hurry to the saloon to see that no one is there. I go back to the room and sit , contemplating about the experience. Talk about lacking a feel for time ^^
It took quite a while for people to get out of their rooms, I think I only listened to ~50% of the exercise.
Releasing
Body was relaxed very fast, a feeling of extra ordinary serenity. At some point I felt like a helium balloon as if someone was holding the string , preventing me to float up and away.
First time I get something from the box, I see a Mr. Incredible doll, I push it so it floats up and away.
Second time I reach into the box I get a green pencil, I do the same thing and I watch the pencil dissolve/break as it goes up.
Third time I take a pez dispenser with the head of Jack Skeleton, did the same thing with him.
Fourth time was much harder to get something out of the box. After some time, I managed to get a big red ball and I bounced it on the ground until it flew up and away.
Fifth time was even harder. After some time I pulled an axe and I threw it as strong as I could.
Summary of day III and Focus 15
Lots of nice experiences, focus 15 is a deep meditative state for me.
I was feeling even more disconnected from the physical and a state of mind in which everything besides the present experience is simply irrelevant.
Day IV
The silent morning
Illation Universe wasn’t too special. Normal feelings, nothing special or new to report.
I was sleeping through the 5 messages and through a big part of the Vibe Flow.
From the part I did get to do of the vibe flow, it was very much enjoyable, and I actually didn’t think I clicked out. I went and asked people afterwards: “wasn’t the vibe flow like 10 minutes long?” and then I realized…
So I didn’t really experience something this morning.
I wonder…
Focus 21
In the first experience, I didn’t feel something too unique.
It was great though. The disconnection from the physical was stronger.
I enjoyed moving through the colors and as I reached 21, I tried creating a bridge as Carol suggested, and as I was walking on it, I saw a tall, big, round building with two ETs, they looked the same each other with helmet kind of head and no face. The reason Im pointing this image is because my sister (she was also present in the Gateway Voyage) saw something quite similar.
She was thrilled from it and interacted with them. I only saw them, didn’t do anything about it.
Day V last day 
First exercise - Focus 21
I feel as if there is almost no connection between to the physical in 21. As if I (my consciousness) is hovering just slightly out of phase. Hard to explain, any physical feeling is missing. If I would meditate in F-21, I could say it is similar to the F-15 void only with no physical feelings present.
I see and explore much more a castle with a lot of green outside of it and lots of people and other intelligent creatures all over the place. I have seen this place in the previous exercise but took no notice of it and haven’t explored it yet. I explore it a bit further. A great feeling of happiness and optimism is in the place. When the experience is over I realize how far out I was. I am completely out of sync when I come back, still hovering elsewhere ^^
Superflow * I incredibly enjoyed it *
In this experience, I really realized just how powerful these tools are.
I am walking outside in silence.
First, walking slowly checking things out.
Once in a while, I close my eyes and take some deep breaths to relax.
I enter F-10, no special thing, further relaxation of the body and focus of the mind. * As I usually meditate at least once a day, I am usually seeing things in a high resolution with a very high focus * Resolution was very high. F-12
was great. My field of vision increased, I became much more aware of the things in the sides of my field of vision as opposed to being focused mainly on the center of the field of vision. I became much more sensitive to all sensory perception. Everything was turned up in volume. The contrast was increased. Every time I heard any noise, I was completely focused upon it and it seemed like I was laser sharp. Same goes for visuals, every time any movement, even a slight one in the side of my field of vision, I was immediately focused on it. Hard to explain in words. Some movements even startled me a bit. I felt like a very good detective, as if all I am trying to do is to perceive the physical environment, being very very sensitive to all I perceive.
Focus 15 was way better than that : D.
It was the best. I called it the dream zone, because it felt, just like a dream.
As in the exercises in F-15, the past and future were irrelevant. Things that happened seemed to dissolve and if contemplated upon, they looked like illusions of some kind. Only the present moment being present, with nothing else. An attempt to think about an action that took place (such as a car that drove by) led me to see it fading out, as if it never happened, just like in a dream, like an illusion. Quite a dream mode. Space was also a bit lost, it was harder to give a physical location to sounds. Focus 21…
I was sitting on the swinging chair, counting up and as I reached 21, I start walking. I thought I won’t be able to notice any difference. I was seriously surprised. I found myself connected to a different plane. At first, I didn’t notice anything and as I was looking at a tree, I noticed , felt as if the leaves were dancing. I felt how every plant was alive, every leaf, every tree, every bush. My communication with the plant life was much more direct and I could actually feel very specific communication (vibration) from most of them. As I was walking near the pool area, I simply fall in love with a tree. I gaze at it for a long time and its beauty melts my heart. I feel the need to come closer and to touch him. I project intensely love energy to the tree and his leaves. I followed this by projecting love throughout the universe.
As I go inside the hotel, I see how “dead” the furniture, electrical equipment etc are. I get vibes from them as well but they feel completely dead compared to the nature. I was in love with everything. * I used to consciously concentrate on projecting pure love all day long and also during meditation and it is always amazing, but during this experience, it was stronger than usual *
Touring The Interstate
This was a good one. In F-23 or 24 I saw a very vivid image of the sphinx or some other ancient structure from egypt. If I had time there, I would have leave body and go there, but we went on to F-27 , which was quite amazing.
I see a reality that felt completely virtual, light patterns in the darkness that formed what seemed to be an amazingly big structure with lots and lots of people and other intelligent entities. Dark, deep colors , like black, blue and purple but it was very optimistic and happy (as hard as it may be to imagine). Entities were smiling at me and I was being led by a crow (either a guide of mine or a part of myself), I saw many continuing and also fragmented images of this place. A woman teaching a bunch of entities something, confused people, and “the big room”. This room was right after walking through the first doorway and was consisted of many walkways going all over the place, crossing each other chaotically going throughout what seemed to be infinity with walkways going to and from all directions.
People and other entities were walking on them , flying throughout the room or just teleporting etc…
I kept getting images of the crow and in the end, he looked back to me and gave me a wink 
^^
In the patterning exercise I felt one new sensation.
At one point I was playing with my toes. Crossing my left toe with my right toe and scratching it etc… When I focus on it, I realize those are my second legs and they were completely crossed. First time this happened to me , it was entertaining.
Hope you enjoyed reading this journal or any parts of it that you did.
The Gateway Voyage experience is an important step in my development and I got many tools from it, this week has opened lots of new possibilities to me.
I desire even more than before (which seemed impossible) to explore, to know , to understand and to control my energy and consciousness, thus, the universe.
with Love
Ariel