Well first of all I’m new here and am trying to find some outlet to explain the dreams/nightmares I’ve been having more and more recently. I’m sorry if this is too much detail but I’m desperate for any clues as to what or why this is happening.
Originally I would have these dreams maybe once a month where in the dream something was scaring me to the point I would be yelling at myself to wake up and the only thing I could remember is feeling as if I was literally screaming at myself to “wake up it’s just a dream”. In my dreams I would be laying in my bed sleeping, trying to pinch myself or physically trying to pry my eyes open. When I finally did wake up it was if nothing had happened just this overwhelming fear but I didn’t know of what.
Just a couple weeks ago on vacation I had the same dream but this time it was as if every single detail of what was truly happening in the room while I was sleeping was going on in my dream. I could hear my father snoring in the other room, I could hear the TV. In this dream it was as if someone was pushing down on my back and I couldn’t break free to see what it was, In the dream I was thrashing around to the point of falling off the bed… And again the freakiest part is that when I was doing all this in the dream it was every detail of the room as if it really happening. In the dream I started screaming for my dad to wake me up… It was as if I was laying there and screaming so clearly “dad please try and wake me up” over and over again but I felt like it was all mumbles… Again I went to the point of trying to pinch my arms… Squeeze my hands… Pry my eyes… Whatever I could do that I thought would wake me up… Then when I finally did wake up everything was just as it was in the dream but totally calm and I never was able to wake my dad up.
Last night I fell asleep on the phone with a friend and apparently he did to. When I fell asleep the Christmas lights were on and a DVD start screen was on my monitor. In my dream it started off again with someone pushing down on me and this time being in my own bed that’s exactly where I was in my dream with the same start screen on the DVD the same lights on … This time I was being pushed down so hard I had squirmed myself up against my wall and I could actually taste blood in my mouth for biting my lips or tongue. I again struggled against whatever force this was pushing on me… All of a sudden I was in a totally different room and running for my life towards a door, when I got through the door I ended up in the arms of someone who was trying to hurt me… Just as quick as that happened I was dreaming back in my bed but again trying to wake up… I was screaming to the person I had fallen asleep on the phone with begging him to wake me up and I could hear him there breathing, I could feel how hard I was squeezing the phone trying to yell louder and louder hoping he would finally hear me and wake me up… Then I woke up and he was sleeping just like he was in my dream… The cats were on the end of the bed as if nothing had happened but I woke up in tears. The more and more I have these dreams the closer they get to each other and the more real they get. I do notice they are generally in the first couple of hours I’ve gone to sleep. I’ve never had a nightmare I can remember before maybe one or two when I was a kid. Any help or suggestions are greatly appreciated.