So I’ve been lurking in this forum for a while, but I’ve never posted anything until now. This just felt like one of those things you’d share with people, you know?
So tonight I go to bed with few thoughts about LD’s, it maybe crossed my mind once or twice among all the other crap I was thinking about. I fall asleep, and wake up several hours later, ofcourse forgetting to check the clock on the microwave in the kitchen, which is usually the first thing I’d do. I’m compelled to do a RC for some reason, and discover I’m dreaming! I tried making things happen, but I couldn’t. I’d open door and expect a specific person to be on the other side, but it never worked. Soon the dream faded, and I found myself back in my bed. Did another RC and bam, another LD. This one lasted the longest out of all of them, and was the only one in which I was able to get out of my neighborhood.
The process repeated itself over and over again… each time I’d awake in bed, do a reality check, and walk out into the living room to see a DC version of my father sitting at his computer. I’d walk out the door while he objected, try and get down the street, and find myself in bed before I could even get to the crossroad. In each dream, I had little to no control at all. I even tried breaking the window next to my bed to get out of my room quicker, and something came up resembling a computer screen saying something along the lines of “Entry not permitted”. I tried taking a gun out of a DC’s hand (he was a policeman who had stopped me for some reason) and shooting back at him, but the gun wouldn’t even fire. I told the DC version of my dad that it was a dream, and he laughed and said that was impossible. I tried crawling through the mirror in the bathroom, and even though I got through, I was still in the same place on the other side.
Pretty much the only thing I got out of the entire experience was a scary-as-hell old hag experience around LD six. I couldn’t move at all, and I tried to force myself up, and the bed would rattle around. As soon as I stopped, something from under me would push rock the bed back and forth, all the while distorted ice cream truck music was playing.
During the 13th LD, as soon as I discovered I was dreaming I stood up and screamed “I WANT TO SLEEP GODDAMNIT!” and woke up almost immediatlely afterward.
I’ve had LD’s before, but never like this. Preceeding tonight, my record was three LD’s in a single night, and none of them even resembled the LD’s from tonight, despite them all starting in my room, and still having little control over them.
Am I doing something wrong? I know people say you need practice with creation of objects and DC’s, and even dreamscapes, but I’ve had atleast 30 LD’s now, maybe even more, and I’ve never been able to control anything. Though I’ve been able to prolong lucidity using various techniques found in this forum, I think the most I’ve ever done was fly. And even that was pretty pathetic, I had to run like 40 ft. beforehand.
I apologize for the incredibly long post, especially as my first one.
