Hello everyone!
Two nights ago, I had my first LD. I didn’t really try anything to get it, it just… happened. I only went to bed thinking a lot about remembering my dream the next morning to write it down in my journal; I started to visualize myself writting it down the next morning… and slowly I started to dream and became lucid. It was a very exciting and pleasing experience, the “level” of lucidity was a little low but I still managed to control quite a few things. It was very fun and very beautiful and a nice dream overall.
So last night I wanted to try again. I wanted to do it the same way, not thinking too much about it, just thinking about remembering my dream to write it down in the morning. I started to do the same, visualize myself writting my dream the next morning, but for some reason I was very anxious and began to feel a little uncomfortable.
My heart was beating really fast and I got very anxious, for no reason. To relax, I started to tell myself that I didn’t need to have a lucid dream that night, I just wanted to recall my dream in the morning to write it down. I started to fall asleep thinking about that, but I was still anxious, and then I began to get really scared to get into sleep paralysis (I know you actually always go into sleep paralysis when you’re sleeping, but I mean the kind when you’re conscious and see scary things). To get calmed, I started telling myself that I didn’t have to have a lucid dream that night, I didn’t even have to dream at all, I just wanted to sleep normally. Started telling myself that dreams weren’t necesary this night and didn’t have to stress myself about it.
I started to get really, really scared of the thought I’d get sleep paralysis, and then it all started to feel really strange, I knew I was awake but there was such a weird feeling to the situation and the room; I started looking at my hands every few seconds to do reality checks to reasure myself that I was actually awake. I wanted to turn on the lights but I couldn’t because I was sleeping in the same room with my sister and didn’t want to wake her up.
It all felt really uncomfortable and awkward. I never actually paralyzed, but all the positions I tried were uncomfortable, and my throat felt kind of closed, I don’t know how to explain it.
Eventually I just fell asleep. I didn’t recall my dreams in the morning, only a couple of symbols came to my mind and I wrote them down anyways.
Why do you think this happened? Was it because I was anxious to get a LD? Did I actually get somewhere “near” sleep paraysis? Is it as horrible as it sounds?
It was very scary to get anxious for no reason and get “scared” of the room and everything… has something like this ever happened to you, more experienced lucid dreamers?
. That only happens in the later stages of WILD.