Before the challenge started I set myself the challenge of finding out more about my primary purpose in life. Last night I had several dreams that helped me.
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First dream
In this dream I was driving a kart, but it was quite slow. I met up with several people of my sports club, and decided to drive to a nearby town. I wannted to drive my kart, but they had their own car and they persuaded me to drive with them. We first went through a forest road, and then through a maze of greenhouses. We came to a small bridge, but it went into the water when we tried to cross it.
After we had all emerged from the water wet but unscatched the second part of the dream started. I saw a car driving on a mountain road from a beautiful birds perspective. The driver wanted to drive up the mountain, but when he tried to do so the mountain started to crumble down. It was an impressive sight to see everything collapse. The ground was so far below that I couldn’t see it. The car spiralled towards its doom, together with dozens of pieces of rock.
‘Life is about finding out your own purpose and then working towards it,’ one of my friends said.
‘But he has no alternative options!’ I replied in horror.
I watched the whole scene again, although it went a little quicker this time. The car speeded up and tried to reach the safe part of the mountain, but he was half a second too late. Again, the car fell to the unseen depths below.
Second dream
This dream started in a bar. I was drinking a beer with a few friends who invited me to military training. I thought it would be an interesting and worthwhile experience, so I agreed.
The next day we drove a helicopter over a mountaineous landscape. We were either shot down or took a break, but when we exited the vehicle we were ambushed by four enemy soldiers. We ran up to some crates and hid behind them.
My friend was sure we wouldn’t survive, because we were outnumbered two to one and in a bad position. He didn’t take any action, but simply waited for them to come to us. I was in more of a fighting spirit, and thought my chances of survival were good. From my position in hinding I fired a lasergun and threw a handgrenade. I hardly saw the lasers, and the gernade seemed to excist only in my mind, but my friend remarked after a few seconds that we had won. I thought the entire situation was strange, but did not become lucid.
My friend kept remarking how incredible it was that we had won. ‘Such victories only happen in videogames, but never in real life,’ he remarked.
Before the dream ended I saw several highly detailed drawing of several vehicles, including the helicopter and a truck. They were drawings of lego, but they were extremly realistic.
Third dream
This dream started in my parents house somewhere in the past, but at that time my parents had already died. My sister and I were both there and an uncle of mine visited us. It was a short meeting, but I don’t exactly remember how it went.
The dream then took a more philosofical turn. I started to think about the death of my parents, but the primary thought was that I saw my family a lot at first, but that their visits became less and less frequent as time passed. I was not angry not did I experience any other emotion. I simply accepted the thought, and wished them well in their lives regardless of what the future might bring. If anything it felt like a distance was increasing between us, but it still felt right.
I then started thinking about my primary purpose in life. I know that I want to help people understand the universe and our place in it, but as I started thinking more about it I realized that it didn’t feel right. Suddenly it hit me that what I really wanted to do was become an artist. I am a musician and my dreams are important to me, and I even used to draw a lot in the past, but I never seriously considered art as a profession. As I realized this is where my passion lies I started to cry.
After this realization I had an FA where I sat up in bed, but looked at a very different room then my own. I realized what had just happened and became lucid. Unfortionately the dream was already at it’s end and I woke up.
The dreams above are important to me, as they contain thoughts and images that relates to my primary purpose in life. Here’s my interpretation.
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The message of the first dream is that concerning your primary purpose there are two layers of actions in life. First you have to choose the path that you want to take. Secondly you need to take the right actions to realize this path. The first step should always come for the second. This thought is very important to me as I thought I knew what I wanted to do with my life a few months ago, but after a while I started to doubt myself. This dream was helpful and inspiring, although I didn´t like to see the car plunge to it´s death.
The message of the second dream is that there are many worthwhile experiences in life, but that there will also be challenges. Life is all about conquering those challenges, even if the odds are against you. Techical understanding is also important to me, as is emphasized by the helicopter and the technical drawings. That they were made of lego shows that there should also be an element of fun.
The message of the third dream is that art is more important to me then either training or coaching, and that I should reconsider the various options that I have. I don´t have to be a trainer or a coach, but I could also be an artist. Indeed, it isn´t the act of training or coach that inspires me, but rather the message that I can bring to people. I know there are ways to give inspiring messages through art as well, so I should not look at it as being infirior to more intellectual professions.
In short, it has given me a lot to think about
I briefly became lucid at the end, but otherwise they were ND´s. They did relate to the task I set for myself before the challenge though.