Hello everyone, a new lucider here. (Warning long post )
A freind of mine gave me the url to several luciddreaming sites a few weeks ago, i didnt even know such was possible until reading about it.
I got verry fascinated and read for 2 days in a row about things like lucid dreaming, OBE’s, Chakra, meditation etc etc.
After a few days, i got what i’d call an overload. Since i have a fear of the unknown, yet verry attracted to it, i started getting several fear-attacks, its called agony (i think) - I coudnt sleep, i coudnt stop thinking about OBE’s etc and i kept thinking ‘omg what if i OBE’ now and such. I coudnt sleep for some days, then i finally got back to my normal self.
And now just yesterday, i had my first experience.
I read about WILDS and for some reason i decided to give it a try, to prove something to myself perhaps, or perhapy my sub-consious kept pushing me to make me realize there is nothing to be afraid of. So i laid down, starting thinking, focusing, doing some mantras etc. There was as little glitch where i dont know what happened, the 1-2 second transition between awake and asleep, and i could feel it… I felt that i was falling asleep and i kept focusing. Before i knew it i was in a black void, with certain images flashing before me, it happened incredibly fast so i didnt catch mots of it. But i knew somehow, that i’d have to focus on one of theese images, so i did. Thats when it happened, the vibrations iv been reading about everywhere… They were so powerfull, a refreshing exerpeince if i might add, at that time i wasnt afraid.
I even remember biting my teeth together and saying to myself: Ok here we gooooooooo! The picture drawed closer to me, i could see what i was now. An image of a ball on a beach or something, the vibrations got even stronger.
Then really weird stuff started to happen, i first got a really short sleep paralysis, i could see through my eyelids i think, could see my wall clear as day, and i coudnt move.
Im just really glad that didnt turn out to be an awfull experience like described by some others.
Then right after i woke up. I sat on my bed going ‘wtf’.
This is the funny part, i woke up, took my socks on, turned on my computer… whops the computer isnt working and the room is alot darker than it should be, than i woke up AGAIN!
I had a false awakening! What an confusing experience!
On my first try i managed to get to ‘twilight zone’, experience the vibrations, have a short sp followed up by a FA.
Some poeple think the vibrations is an effect of chakra pulsing through your body to project, i believe this is true.
I could feel it flowing and when i woke up the first time i could feel it slowing down, amazing.
So now i dont know what to do, i coudnt sleep this night, afraid for some reason again. Its funny, its like i fall asleep, and at ONCE i wake up again, like i somehow refuse to dream?
I so wish i wasnt afraid, i just want to lunge in the unknown, because i know deep down that it will probably be an awesome experience
But still the fear of the unknown holds me back.
The funny thing is, that the twilight zone as some call it, is extremely easy for me to sense. I dont even have to focus or count or doing mantras, there’s just a certain point right before i fall asleep that i feel it, i focus for some seconds and im there. Thats what happened tonight, but i managed to jump out of it before the image-part the hypnagogic or something i believe you call it. So im going to sleep in a few hours, i wonder what’s gonna happen.
This post turned out to be alot longer than i expected, but i hope poeple can learn from it, and i would really like to hear about your experiences aswell. Id appreciate tips, id actually appreciate anything right now
Either way, the burden im carrying is slightly easier now
Thats it for me now, caio!