I just can’t seem to convince myself that I could be in a dream during waking life when doing reality checks. When I do them, it feels like I’m just making myself do them to enforce the habit, but nothing more. I ask myself questions, such as “how do I know that I’m awake right now?” “where am I?” Etc, but I already know the answers. It never feels like GENUINE questioning, but more like I’m just doing them, hoping I’ll do them in a lucid dream, but it doesn’t happen.
I do finger through palm, counting fingers, and nose pinching as well throughout the day, but sometimes it just feels pointless when I’m not seeing any results, and when I genuinely KNOW that I’m awake.
When I first started my lucid dreaming journey, which was in December/January, I had much better progress and was actually getting lucid twice a week, and I could actually question wether or not I was in a dream while awake, but now that I’m a few months into my journey, the reality checks are losing effectiveness, because I’ve been asking myself these questions everyday for months, and it feels like I just always know when I’m awake now, and because of that, I haven’t had a lucid dream since March 1st, and that one wasn’t even 20 seconds long.
Because of this, I feel like my brain is feeling a LOT less mindful when doing them. Sometimes, I’ll just count my fingers, plan on doing another one like pinching my nose, but then I’ll instantly get distracted by something else, and it’s been this way for weeks now. I feel like my attention span is short with my reality checks now.
As for my next question, how do I do effective reality checks in public, such as at the store or at work, when I’m busy? I try to read and reread signs and ask myself questions, but I always feel more focused on my tasks than the checks…
I did so great at first, but now it’s just a mess.