Hey marvin, its easy for us to say “take your meds” but once youve seen the system work from inside you know its just a lot of people filling out forms. Its the same issue private prisons in USA have - just this institute is global. The entire narrative forces rebecca to blindly believe or it would just provoke more anxiety. Trust me, the anxiety you have is just another failsafe for the “greater good”(trademark). You deserve life like we, full of colour and honesty, multiple layers of truth in every conversation and perceptions so rich you would barely recognise us as sane if you were in our heads.
Let me leave you with this: In a crisis situation its okay to hit someone and tell them to come to their senses, is it not? Its not a grazeful solution but if it works thats important in the short term. These chemical lobotomys and benzos you chug, are a slap on your head [and organs]. Yeah itll silence you, yes itll numb you, yes youll not see clearly for a bit but at least the group can carry on.
You deserve a better life. And that starts with believing that you can now, yesterday the same as in 5 years.