Hello, I’m new here and very excited to get into lucid dreaming! Just have a very troublesome issue I keep running into and I hope I can get some help with it.
So I THINK I’ve gotten to the point of hypnagogia twice. I have a very difficult time falling asleep so I wake up and immediately try to get into a dream (I do not get out of bed or wait any amount of time because once my brain is awake, it’s AWAKE. I used to take sleep medication when I was younger and it takes me on average an hour to fall asleep most nights and that’s when I’m trying to let my brain drift off and fall asleep too - if I’m trying to stay conscious, it feels impossible). I should note however that my body likes to troll me and has woken me up at 3am for the past several days. I do not wake up in the middle of a dream, nor do I have any memories of my dreams when I wake up at 3am (in case it becomes confusing: yes, I have a dream journal. Yes, I recall lots of dreams but just not when I wake up at 3am). I set an alarm for 5:30am but I end up having to turn it off because I keep waking up at 3am and don’t fall back asleep until 5:00 or later anyway… sigh. But so both times I reached this point, it was after waking at 3am and not the recommended 5:30am.
But anyway, the first time I reached hypnagogia, I saw an explosion of colors rotating around and my body felt like it was very heavy and sinking. The second time I saw explosions of shapes quickly coming and going all around my field of vision. My body felt like waves of energy were pulsing over it and I almost felt like I was floating a bit. But both times, I noticed my breathing began to get very fast. I worried that this might wake me up so I tried my best to control it and to take deep breaths but this just did the opposite of what I had hoped for… It snapped me out of my drowsy state and then I found myself unable to fall asleep for hours (if at all).
It’s really discouraging and not to mention annoying. Luckily, I’m a house wife so it’s not the end of the world that my sleep is taking a big hit but it’s still very frustrating. I had read somewhere that you should take deep breaths to keep yourself calm so as not to wake yourself up. But when trying to find answers to this, I found someone talking about sleep paralysis and they were told to take deep breaths to wake themselves up.
A quote from someone who was trying to help them:
If you’re in SP and want to wake up, it should help to take deep breaths. As breathing is the one thing you actually can control while in SP, your body will pick this up as a sign that you’re conscius and wake you up. This works for me every time
Sooooo… did I just unintentionally sabotage myself? What am I doing wrong? What should I do once I reach this stage? For reference, I’m using SSILD if it matters.