I felt my body fall asleep. I was counting on inhales and exhales, concentrating on my breathing to remove inner dialogue. On the exhale, near the end of the breath, I felt myself get heavier. HI began, I saw random images and my body became very heavy. I felt a cold sweat break out and lost feeling in my body, I believe it was SP, although I didn’t want to move and break the feeling. Everything felt very heavy and my muscles felt tense and relaxed at the same time. I felt almost dizzy, both in my head and in my stomach. It was like I could feel the blood in my veins, rushing through my ears creating a buzzing sound and vibrations. I felt as though I was floating in the red/black images seen behind closed eyelids. Unfortunately, I got excited, thinking “this is it! My body is falling asleep!” and it slowly faded away.
I counted to 100 several times (maybe 10 or 12), rarely losing count and having to start over. I felt the sensation of my body falling asleep about 5 times. It felt like about 45 minutes, but more than 100 minutes had actually passed. (I am quite sure I never actually slept.) I got up to write this and it felt good to stretch, my body cracked as though I had slept a full night. I never fully crossed to sleep, this time. I experimented by concentrating on the feeling of my sleeping body, quite a rush, almost frightening. I also tried concentrating more on the HI, looking at the back of my eyelids until the images came, to make myself aware that I was looking at something. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Closed-eye_hallucination The miasma made ripples, flowing outward. I tried to use it as HI, imagining myself falling, but to no effect.
It was like trying to tame a wild timid animal. You wanted it to come, but if you concentrated on it, you frightened it away. I think I have to feign disinterest, keep a detached feeling, try to remain objective and merely experience it instead of trying to force it. I can’t let the excitement come or adrenaline will pump and I won’t fall asleep.
After several hours of reaching the edge of sleep using a WILD technique (see “Breakthrough!” below), I decided to stop counting and just go to sleep. I did, receiving no LD’s, just dream fragments. I woke up with some time left, so I returned to bed. I felt myself on the edge of sleep twice, then on the third time I crossed, but there was a blackout period of about 10 minutes before the dream started. I was having trouble counting, reaching only 20’s. When the edge of sleep came, I gained some focus, reaching 100 and starting over at 1.
On the third time, I fell asleep, but I had a DILD instead of a WILD. It’s like a great backup plan. Click here to see my DILD.