It could be that the first time you set it as your goal you had a lucid dry spell for unrelated reasons and now you are just defeating yourself because of the association between your SG and lack of lucids. I would say, to help you meet them, try meditating and call out to them in a meditation. That is how I met my SG and how I always contacted her. It’s worth a try to get yourself off the ground, so to speak.