Hi everybody,
Few weeks ago, I got an opportunity to research/study about WILD in more detail and I believe that I’m now sure that most WILD attempts failed because of being too alert. Usually I WILD so fast that I don’t really remember how it all works; also I usually don’t have my awareness too high to fail. I thought last night, “Well, if people are having so much troubles with that… I’ll test it and see if it works with heightened awareness than before.” Also I deliberately slowed the progress of WILD down so I could study how it works and observe as I go by. I’ll share my experience with you and then hopefully it would be helpful for people to achieve WILD a bit easier (that’s my goal ). Also I will be voicing my opinions based on my experience and my observation, perhaps you will find it useful… it’s time to take all of them out of me.
I went to bed at around 23:30 and woke up at 03:00. I had to go to bathroom. Lol. I went back to bed and lay on my back with my right hand on my plexus and my left hand below that for comfort and I had my legs a bit open wide for secured feeling (I always feel like I’m rolling off my bed if I don’t have my legs securing me). This time, I did that differently; I kept my awareness high. I tried to be alert enough to observe everything in detail. For a while, I was getting impatient, but suddenly, I felt a rush of intense relaxing and paralysis through my spine to my tailbone. It spread around my root charka and eventually my legs felt the effect. Somehow, I was able to pause/resume my experience. Around this time, I paused to observe the effect that I experienced. Then I resume… I allowed my awareness to go a bit more because I was stuck in this stage. Then… wow… the paralysis hit my stomach area. I felt it relaxing… melting away. Then suddenly, I felt like I was choking, but I ignored this sensation. Then paralysis came up through my back spine then my arms felt its effect. My neck, then my face felt it next. I didn’t feel numb yet, just stiff and relaxed at the same time. Not fully paralyzed yet though. I just relaxed… I was at the plateau so I had to wait. Suddenly, I fell deeper, more of paralysis set in from the same way… tailbone, root charka, legs, stomach, spine, arms, neck, head, and then face. Suddenly, the choking feeling went away. I just totally melt away, but not full paralyzed yet. Lol. I lost control of my breathing. My heartbeats increased. Paralysis now hit me harder and for good. Same way. I still felt myself on bed through, but I was so paralyzed. I could just imagine myself running and it felt so real. I could try to move, hence creating an illusion of dream body. But because of my heightened consciousness, I couldn’t fully takeover my dream body. It was more like a vivid daydream. I began to experience those annoying itches, but I couldn’t move at all so I ignored them. I also experienced some spasms. I believe it was a way for my brain to see if I am fully paralyzed yet or not. Indeed, I was paralyzed. Suddenly the numbness came… just like how paralysis was spread around from tailbone. It came in impulses… more numbness. I began to feel myself floating. I even thought my left hand was on my right hand, but no… it was just an illusion. I was purely one with my breath. I observed my HH’s and they happened to make complex shapes. I tried to see some of dreamscapes in there, but then my consciousness came in conflict. I felt like I was having a seizure and mind splitting positions. Suddenly, I began to hallucinate while I was still having a “seizure.” I was walking in a strange high-tech corridor. It was dimly lit by white and soft green lights. I felt the wall. Tactile sensation was very vivid, but what I saw was just like a vivid daydream not a dream. My “seizure” continued to get worse. I stopped daydreaming and my “seizure” reduced into nothing. I felt an extreme strong rush to open my eyes. I opened my eyes. I was still hallucinating a bit. My room was full of pulsing light. I fought against my paralysis to turn over on my side because my back was hurting from laying flat on my bed. I felt like I was on drug. I was still partially paralyzed when I turned over to my left side.
I closed my eyes again. And suddenly, I was paralyzed again. It continued to increase and increase. I tested my paralysis by faking the actions like running. I had that strange urge to shiver. I was very hot, but I knew it was part of being in trance. It always made me hot. Breathing was a strange sensation because basically entire of my body did not exist, but I could feel my lungs very well. It felt like an expanding balloon inside me, but that was it. That all I could feel, nothing else. The banging vibration came from my brainstem. It eventually resonated throughout my body. I knew that I was now somewhere in delta waves. My plexus solar charka became very dominant; however, this time it was very different since I had much more awareness in there. I had much more conflict with it. I couldn’t reach dream stage even I tried with my well-known techniques. Now I was in delta waves. I knew I wasn’t going to dream anymore. I decided to meditate for a while in this trance to see what happen. I was in that nice pitch-black void. Suddenly, I had that “seizure” sensation again. My mind went into overload mode again. I knew I was perfectly safe, but I actually attempted something that was very unnatural… being in theta and delta waves with heightened awareness than before. Both of my consciousness and my subconsciousness “fought” each other. My consciousness had enough awareness to desire to remain being awake, but yet I allowed my subconsciousness to take over… which caused that reaction. But unfortunately, I had to go to bathroom again (too much of liquid intake). I experienced that strange trance. I was still partially paralyzed when I went to bathroom. My face was mostly paralyzed. I looked dead and relaxed when I looked in the mirror. Lol.
I came back in my bed; it was around 06:30 that time. So, I had been playing with WILD trance for three hours and 30 minutes. I thought, “OK, let’s WILD for sure.” I was laying on my right side. Soon enough, I got paralyzed quite quickly. I continued to visualize my consciousness being decreased by using thin strings to represent the amount of awareness that I had. I removed several strings at one a time until there was one string left. I was in a line between falling asleep and being barely aware. Next thing I knew was that my plexus charka went nuts and my consciousness was being pushed into nothing. I blacked out, only to wake up in dominated SP. I was floating. My hands were hanging in the air. I rolled out. The vibration hit me. I knew it was a succeeded WILD. I was in my bedroom floating. Everything was colored in different tints. It was like an OBE, but I didn’t see my body. It was dark outside instead of dimly lit sky with sun starting to reveal itself in real life. I did an experiment on myself. It was confirmed that I still could control the environment and myself even though I was OBE’ing. I woke up pretty quickly after that. I knew I wasn’t dreaming. I knew I was experiencing what you call it, an OBE. It was fake (projection) though. It was now around 08:30. I had been playing with WILD/meditative trance for around 4 to 5 hours now.
So, my conclusion is that the main problem that people encountered was that they had too much of awareness to start with. Even I attempted to enter forcefully into my dream world and I failed. I kept on being in that strange mind splitting and “seizure-like” sensations when I was attempting that task. I also was in WILD trance forever with no successes until I took a large portion of my consciousness away. In order to succeed being in your dreamscape fully, it is required to be aware INSIDE of your subconscious, hence the name, “Crossing Over.” When people attempt to WILD, sometimes they don’t allow their consciousness to fall back for few minutes to make the ‘crossing over’ progress; therefore, their attempt of WILD fail. So, the major factor that people, I believe, should focus on taking away a large portion of their consciousness in order to be successful. Also there are factors where people possibly could freak out about: spasms, paralysis, numbness, choking sensation, vibration, HH’s, a sudden increase in heartbeats, losing control of breath (subconscious taking over), etc. You absolutely cannot react to those when you are attempting to WILD or otherwise, you could either be snapped out of WILD trance or stopping yourself from progressing any further. So, there are two major factors that you must overcome in order to succeed: awareness/consciousness and fears. Once you have overcome those, you might find WILD’ing a bit easier, but it isn’t going to fix everything. You still need to practice mental strength just to ignore the urges to move, to itch, to wake up, etc. The key is to act like you are actually falling asleep unconsciously, that means you have to be empty and non-responsive to what you experience, so that requires a lot of mental discipline and patience. By meditating regularly, it might help you to develop or improve your mental strength and mental discipline to help you with WILD’ing. Therefore, it concludes my experiment with WILD and I wish you HUGE good luck!