G’day LD community. I originally posted this in the “I’m back” thread last night, as I technically am, having already joined here. That said, it was 8 years ago and I don’t know anyone and noone knows me so for all intents and purposes I am new So it made sense to move the post here. I was tired and rambled on a bit, but nevertheless here’s my post:
I had been fascinated with dreams all my life, and had had quite a few dreams in my childhood where I realised that I was dreaming (happened less as I got older unprisingly - man it would be good to have that natural creative sensitivity of a child all the time hey!). I didn’t know this was a recognised phenomenon unti I came across the concept of Lucid Dreaming back in early 2002 whilst researching for a uni assignment.
Instantly taken by such a mind-blowing possibility, I dived right in, diligently keeping a dream journal for over a year, recording at least one dream most days. I was able to achieve a number of lucid dreams of increasing stability and control during this time. And I loved it just for the normal dreams too - my recall was so vivid that the memories were as clear and strong as my waking memories. I felt like I got to live two lives, and couldn’t wait to go to sleep to see what wacky adventure i would go on each night!
But start of 2003 I ended up hanging around some people with some people who had ‘stricter’ views on things (ok, I am a Christian, but fell in with some very fundamentalist types), and being young and impressionable, I thought that LD’ing must be wrong and so I gave it up. The next few years ended up being pretty hard for me, and were the lowest of my life. I’m still sorting out stuff now and re-finding who I am (haven’t abandoned my faith altogether though). My dream recall (and creativity in general) had all but dried up in this time too.
Anyways, what brings me back to this forum was a fateful moment last week, when I was doing a bit of a spring clean (ironicly so, it being autumn here!) and came across none other than my dream journal! I hadn’t looked at it in years. Hesitatingly I opened it, knowing that it would remind me of a time in my life when I was a lot happier, but instead of being dishearted, I was absolutely inspired and excited, both to realise how fun a dream-aware life was, and also in reading the journal entries. It was strangely like reading an actual journal, as naturally the dreams reflected the happinings of my life back then, and this reminding brought back feelings of joy and a mindset that was much less burdened. It is like therapy man! Through my DJ I am reconnecting with my old (and more genuine) self, and I feel like I am truly living again for the first time in years!
With each day since re-awakening (ho ho what a pun! ) to dreams again, I also feel my creativity (and along with it, interest in old hobbies) returning, like rusty, long forgotten cogs starting to slowly grind again. It feels great! Now that I am here, I don’t ever want to let go of such an amazing priviledge as dreams, and LDs especially, and so I hope to be an active member of this forum.
I realise that this post is a little verbose and personal, and I apologise for that. Guess I had a lot to get off my chest!