I had two SP experiences so far. The first one was last year when I awoke during the night in an uncomfortable position, with the bed sheet over my face not being able to move and feeling a presence of a person near my bed.
The second one was actually last night. It was very hot and I couldn’t sleep properly the whole night, always falling asleep for a bit, then waking up again. Suddenly at one point I felt my legs and arms go numb and I got a dizzy, spinning feeling in my head. I tried to move and I couldn’t, so I thought it must be SP and I wanted to use it to enter a dream, so I tried to visualize some dream scene. Instead suddenly I was able to see my room, although I didn’t open my eyes, but my vision was shaking badly and I also was breathing very fast and felt a bit like choking. Then suddenly everything stopped. Was this an SP?
The weird things is, and I really don’t know what to do about it, while all of this happens to me my mind is quite clear, and I am not scared at all. However I am always very scared before or after such an experience. For example tonight I am quite scared that I might enter an SP unwillingly. This doesn’t make sense, because I do not feel any fear while actually experiencing the paralysis.
I don’t know what to do about that fear, and I feel like it’s a barrier preventing me of having WILDs.